[Tom_X]

Hello, everyone!
I've been "fighting" my marijuana addiction for the last 5 years. I know some people say it's not a hard drug, and it doesn't cause addiction, but for me it is. I've had two diagnosed psychotic episodes form smoking weed and they have created some deep problems, although I no longer experience any psychotic symptoms.
Anyways, seven months after the last time I quit, and six months after my last psychotic episode, I smoked again yesterday. I was drunk and I decided that it couldn't hurt to smoke just a little.
I'll be honest, for the last five months I've been absolutely sure that I was unable to feel joy in my life; everything just seems dull and gray. But yesterday, well, I felt happiness again. I know it's the drug, but a lot of people say that you get better with time (and I know you do, the longest time that I've been sober is for 18 months) but that exact kind of happiness, I haven't been able to find nowhere else.
The thing is that MJ has given me way more troubles than solutions, and I don't wan't to become attached again to that substance (nor tobacco or alcohol).
Have any of you tried antidepressants? Do they work?
Any advice?
Thanks a lot for listening.

[splitimage]

Absolutely weed can be addictive. I've been in rehab enough times with people who are trying to quit to know that. And if you've already had psychotic episodes as a result of use, then you really shouldn't risk it again. You might get into a psychotic episode that you can't get out of.

I'd strongly recommend seeing a psychiatrist, since you've had a depressed mood for some time now. Anti depressants can and do work, and are a lot safer than self medicating.

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[avlady]

I have to say I do think meds work better than anything else, after being on them myself for over 20years of trial and error, in the docs trying to find the right medications and finally over the past 3 years of being alot more stable on them. I tried weed few times and ccoud not function or think any thoughts but pshytotic images in my head, so it scared me so much i never even ant to try it again, that is how scarry it was. I think someone must have laced it with something else after hearing all the good stuff about weed, some people can handel it and some can't, especially if you're schitzoeffective like me too.

[spondiferous]

I was totally addicted to weed. I'm an addict and there's not a single blessed thing I've ever put in my body that I haven't been addicted to. I agree that it's a good idea to talk to a doctor about what's going on. Addictions are hard things to quit and you are wise to want to put a stop to it before you become dependent on it again.