[bluewind]

Decided I wanted to be free. So far, so good but I'm dreading the am pain. I feel much better about myself having made the decision and have not taken one since this morning. I'm done.

[MarlboroChick]

Wow thats really hard. I dont have the control to stop like that, I had to go into rehab by force to get me off heroin. I cant handle withdrawal hahaha. Good job

[Squaw]

Originally Posted by bluewind

Decided I wanted to be free. So far, so good but I'm dreading the am pain. I feel much better about myself having made the decision and have not taken one since this morning. I'm done.

I always try to offer support for those who want to change their lifestyles..What you are doing takes great courage and strength, and I commend you for trying...I pray you handle this well..take care..♥

[bluewind]

I wasn't taking enough to be physically chained down. Just one or two pills a day for a month. But I could already tell I was feeling it was wrong and I was mentally thinking about when to take the next one and taking them when I wasnt in pain. They were prescribed. Today I feel pretty good. Still some pain but not as bad as I thought it would be. Soon my body will begin to release its own painkillers and I'll feel better.

Had to say no to a friend to go shopping yesterday because I needed to rest and wasn't up to it. But I'm starting to feel like my old self. Not so edgy and irritable and confused and bored.

I want to have freedom and joy and I want to paint. I'm an artist and painting is very important to me. Plus it's how I make my living. I was never focused enough to sit down and do art when on painkillers but I started a new piece today. Yay!

At least I didn't drink. That's always the worst and my drug of choice.

I also apologized to my husband and he forgave me. It was hard but he is non -judgemental. I got a good one!

[Sigster66]

Good for you! I made the decision today myself after years of pain management with opiates. I hurt my back doing work and took extra and ran out early this month. It was hell and opened my eyes to what a slave I have become. I sat there in tears in my psychiatrist's office today asking for help. I had to go almost a week without meds before my refill. I am Bipolar too so I don't just go through physical withdrawls I have horrible mental symptoms. I am going to do Suboxone to avoid ending up in a mental hospital and give my brain chemistry time to normalize.

[avlady]

One day at a time IS the best way to go!!!

[Mental_Peroxide]

I was an opiate addict for 10 years because I suffer from Lupus (chronic pain) They started me on codeine and as my tolerance grew, I worked my way up the narcotic chain until I was on Oxycontin. One day I had had enough. Enough of counting pills to see how many I had until I could get more and could I take just one more NOW? My life revolved around the pills. I went to my pdoc (I had just recently been DX'ed with BiPolar II) and said I was quitting all the meds I was on except my psych meds. He and my T called my husband and I in and said I would need to go to rehab to the tune of $15,000. I said "Bull****. Lock me in my bedroom, give me something for nausea, and some Gatoraide and I can do this myself." And I did. It took about a week for the bad withdrawal symptoms to stop, then several weeks after that for the mental desire to go away. I can't even remember what it was like, now, but you have to get to a certain place where you are REALLY sick of living for pills to do it. But, it CAN be done.

I wish you the best. It sounds as if you were not as deep in your addiction as I was and will have an easier time quitting. I hope that is the case. However you do it, let me assure you, it is worth it. You can hold me to that. -MP-

[spondiferous]

How's it all going blue?