[razeljenny]

I really will stay in GOOD SPIRITS. Staying in good spirits matters in this program of mine that I am working on. You know I am glad I have work to do that helps to get through days and nights better. "NOrmal people" are doing a pretty crummy job. I have seen rich business folks grimicing to themselves walking down main street, not at all content, pressured and looking like they had one drink to make it through. I can't say that is what is happening, but I sure am glad I learned something about my "thinking" in "AA" because it not only worked for me, it kept on and will in a brand new day when I take some time to do the 10 step spotchecks, think about weather I am having an "emotional hangover" which is in the 4th steps, when I am steping onto maybe a roller-coaster of emotional stimulation that I had not spend too much time seated in the seat, but I am drawn by instinct and impulse to not resist it, until it is almost too darn late, yet, I check into the possiblity of thinking do I have a 4th step insecurity issue, right here, right now?; should I take a moment to think it is that, and that is why the difference between me and a martini drinking business person's attitude and triumpths can be noteworthy for me to choose the "AA" way, as opposed to a name in business. Of course a name and bank account because of being a winner in the world of work wouldn't be bad either, but dosen't matter to me that much if I can't both gain skill in aquiring serenity in my spirit where it counts.

Do you agree. Do you have a bugging issue that just won't drop? A place in the heart or mind that you can't clean out, cause it was hurt too bad? I did and still do, but want to listen. I.M. me if you want or share alittle with us in recovery on the board. We love you and believe in you because we are doing it together with the higher power and that is good, one day at a time. Lve Razeljenny

[Raynaadi]

Great post =)