[razeljenny]

Being truthful, trusting and myself. Blunt about what I don't want and can't allow. Feels better with leeroy to be truthful blunt and trusting and honest with leroy because I can't just run to the alcohol and drugs pills to cover up my inadaquate hurts and moods that are manifesting and causing pimples, emotional pimples. Rather cry in public rather really express day to day feelings anywhere I am, than to save them up for no one to see and to hear and than get left with no recources to show myself but to cave-in about it. It is even actually a better choice to maybe cry a little bit in public and be recognized by it and accepted for my way that I be than to stand alone with tons of sadness a feeling of depletion and uselessness losing ground fast, isolating my whole being into a quart . I would rather be truthful and thought of as "a baby " with people that care around me than alone with only a pill or worse a bottle of booze to only be waking up alone tomorrow with worse problems and more to cry about.