[razeljenny]

drank. still, might go to a meeting support group. got confused and frightened by a family member. The police were involved, the boyfriend was not as supportive as before. The son who is giving me some difficulty scared the crap out of me. It involved D.V.

[Raynaadi]

Nothing is an excuse to drink or use. It's a choice. Start over. Don't drink or use no matter what...there's no good reason.

[Soidhonia]

Hello I hope things are going better for you soon, and you dont give up on recovery for yourself. Take care Soidhonia

[ster]

I wish you well. with me it had to be foremost in my mind. I did what ever I had to do. stay for 3 meetings a day. get some phone numbers and use them. I know if you really want it you will do it.

[razeljenny]

I am doing pretty good. Too bad I went out. I am glad I posted here and will keep working it one day at a time. Rule 62 states to not take myself too darn seriously. Failure and success is one day at a time for me. I can let it go.

[Raynaadi]

You hit the nail on the head razeljenny. Keep on trudgin!

[razeljenny]

not an easy afternoon. felt fuzzy and actually abused some milder pill suppliments. Trying to kick the nicotine at the same time I am recuperating from going out. Sick feeling puppy still continues to breathe and hold on.

[Raynaadi]

Be kind to yourself...I was going to quit smoking too when I first got sober and everyone said one thing at a time...if quitting smoking is going to lead you drink or use, put it off until you get some comfortable sobriety under your belt. That's what was suggested of me.

[razeljenny]

Been reading and working 9th and 10th step. Re-reading certain steps really helping. Using highlighter pen really helped. Boyfriend was doing the similar reading at our separate homes last night and after we telephoned today we laughed becaise ot was funny we did the same things. Anyway, holding on to recovery.

Lots of things to tick me off lately, (really) such as could get a resentment against my roommates at the house, but better leave that to a non drinker because it will lead me to anger, jelousy, fear, etc and to the can or bottle.

Just breathing. Talked to sponsor before I got on here. We really helped eachother. Both of us feel crummy right now about interpersonal relationships in our lives at work and stuff so we were supportive over the phone. Love Razel Robin

Still puffing away and this is not a real good time to just quit them, you are right and so was your friend.

[Raynaadi]

It's great that you're reading the literature. I just have to ask, have you worked steps 1 through 8 before working 9 and 10? It's been my experience that working the steps in order helps to make them make sense, and since 9 is amends, it's better to have an understanding of the first 8 before going and making amends. A good friend of mine relapsed recently and she's starting over with step one, because since she drank, she realized she hadn't a thorough first step. Just an idea. Keep on trudgin!

[razeljenny]

Started going to a brand-new group. It is small. I get to share more time. I read more at the meeting out of the books.

I think that the smaller group, for me, keeps me calmer, because with too many personalities at a large meeting, I can't help copping some attituedes. Why am I this way? Who knows, gee, I guess I am still in the twelve steps, an growing alot more this past week. Sorry I went out, yet so gladd I have my fellowship on a internet board. You all hang in there and do whatever you can. Love Robin G.