I think I might be addicted to Kratom

If you haven't heard of Kratom it's a plant and its leaves get ground up into a powder that can be made into a tea or if you're hardcore you can just dump the powder in your mouth and swallow it with water (that's what I do).

It has a high that people compare to opioids, but to me it's not really like that. For me it's just something that helps ease my social anxiety so I can have a smoother day socially. If I don't take it, I end up having an awful day.

The problem is, I blow 50$ a week on it, and I don't make very much money. That's 200$ a month. That's more than half of my rent. The other problem is I just got started on metformin, which makes me nauseous and makes me not want to eat in the mornings, so I end up taking the metformin and the kratom together and I vomit sometimes, because they do not mix well.

I don't take it on the weekends, just weekdays (kind of opposite of what you would think). I don't know if I'm physically dependent on it or not, or if that's even possible, but I definitely depend on it to get through the work week emotionally. I've been in a depression for the entire 8 months I've been working at my current job and I feel like Kratom is basically the only thing keeping me afloat. I don't hate my job, but it is stressful and emotionally and socially demanding; two areas where my stores are generally pretty depleted.

I've cut back by about a 1/3 in the last two months but I don't want to quit. Or at least I don't think I can quit. But I feel ridiculous vomiting at work sometimes (I have to take metformin again at work and I dose Kratom throughout the day), and spending so much money. I don't really know what I should do.

I should mention Kratom is totally legal. The store I get it from is like a mile from my house (which really doesn't help matters).

Also I've been taking Kratom off and on for several years now. Sometimes I can go without it for 10 months at a time. I rarely used it in college. I seem to only use it when I'm forced to be social, which for me has been when I have a job. When I don't have a job I'm fine not using it.

My husband "toss and wash" with coffee or coke, yeah it's expensive. He used it to keep heroin withdrawal at bay. But then he needed Kratom because withdrawal sucked. He's been using Kratom for years. He chooses certain strains depending on what he wants. He is addicted to opiates at this moment and don't know what to do :-( nobody has heard of Kratom herb powder. It's banned in the place it originated from, and they're working on it in the states

So in addition to working full-time and going to school bipolar on a double complement of meds, you pound $200 a month of a powdered plant called Kratom? You are becoming my hero.

ive never heard of this stuff until now :/ but maybe u need some klonopin during the day to control your anxiety at work ? ??

I already take klonopin during the day. Maybe I'm just emotionally dependent on Kratom and I would be fine without it. Maybe I should do a test run this week without it. Or at least with the dose cut in half.

I'm glad I'm somebody's hero. Too bad it's not really in a good way :P

I agree, maybe cut back and see how u feel

i agree with et phone home too

So far this week I've been able to get all this work week's (tomorrow is my friday and I still have a day worth's left) supply from what I bought for last week, so I think I cut my usage more than in half in one week. So I saved 50$ and seriously cut back. I feel good about that.

Nicely Done!

I managed to use a one week supply for two whole weeks. I'm going to try to do it again for the next two weeks. I didn't notice much of a difference. No withdrawal or anything, although I have been manic so I don't know if I would even notice or care about withdrawal.

that's good job the best way to fly is straight. hope u can manage to get off it successfully

Why don't you just smoke pot?

because it makes me go psychotic and i get drug tested at work.

How about copious amounts of chamomile tea? It cannot harm you and it calms the nerves.

I don't need to be more calm I need to be more socially adept/engaged. That's what the kratom helps me with. I have clonopin for nerves/anxiety. But that just dulls me.

And I don't like tea. And chamomile tea had never done anything for me.