[Raynaadi]

Well.....I'm just sad and angry today.

Problems here on PC, bf having problems at work.....not my OWN darn problems and yet its all making me sad anyway.

Experience strength and hope on letting go the problems of the damn world and not shouldering everything???

I'm letting things take up space in my head rent free and I don't like it.

Gotta take Grandma to an appointment soon and I'll just be pretending I'm fine while I'm with her. I want to be of service to her and not let this crappy mood that began about 30 minutes after I woke up to get in the way of service.

I probably won't get replies before I leave. I just needed to get this out and this is the forum I need....I feel like crying but the tears won't come.

After the high's come the low's right? Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Raynaadi]

Just as a slightly funny aside....I just read my daily meditations for today, and they're both on experiencing pain in life.....coincidence? I think not. Hmmm......

[snowflake_48888]

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I have enough tears for us both.......
Snow

[Soidhonia]

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I hope things get better for you soon. Take care of yourself. Soidhonia

[Fuzzybear]

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[Raynaadi]

I feel a little better. Got away for a bit to take Grandma out. Then I had a hassle at the bank but it worked out. Just feeling agitated and can't put my finger on it.

Read my favorite paragraph on pg 417:

"And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation - some fact of my life - unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in [insert belief here] world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life's terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes."

This paragraph sums it up for me and it usually works. It doesn't work today because I don't WHAT the problem is......I don't know WHAT is unacceptable to me right now, and until I can figure that out, I can't change my attitude. Its frustrating!

[Raynaadi]

Hmmm.....maybe its just time to act "as if" I'm not agitated....I've asked for the agitation to be removed but its not, so there must be something I need to look at today.

[Raynaadi]

Ooooh you know what? I didn't get to a meeting yesterday......maybe thats it. Maybe my meeting tonight is what I need. Hehe, its funny how talking to myself here is sorting things out in my head......crazy? I think not! Hahaha!!!!

(((((((((Ray))))))))) I hope you're feeling better and not as stressed. I really liked that paragragh you wrote out of your book. Thanks for sharing that. I could use that towards my anger management.