rant

I HATE LIFE. My life. It hates me.

I just want to bloody give up on everything. Why do I bother. NOTHING ever gets better. It just gets worse. I look at myself in the mirror and I see looking back at me the pathetic excuse for humanity I've always been. Maybe the reason why all this up stuff happens to me is because I deserve it.

I'm not even able to bloody type some days because I'm so stupid and scared.

My good friend Zac is in hospital again.
I just got out of the ward.
My nephew is sick.
Everything reminds me of something bad.
I can't walk.
I can barely talk.

fgl;hqeartjag. I have no reason to be the miserable idiot I am. Suck it up and stop complaining but I can't. Now I could lose Zac and he's one of my closest friends, and I just lost Chris this year.

I want to drink or cut or hurt because I'm rotten. WHY CAN'T I JUST GIVE UP. I've been around long enough to see that life SUCKS.

I drag everyone down. I'm dragging you down by reading this. Going into the ward was a bloody waste of time, I feel worse. Everyone who hurt me was right about me.

(((((((Griffe)))))))

((((((((((( Griffe ))))))))))))

Griffe...i don't know you but i do know this...

you are NOT a piece of *****, you are NOT a pathetic excuse for humanity, you are NOT stupid or an idiot, you are NOT dragging anybody down with this post. What you ARE is a fantastic human being going thru some horrendous stuff. And it's NOT because you deserve it...some of the most fantastic ppl around go thru horrendous stuff too.

now i'm no good at giving advice so i'm not gonna put my foot in it by trying...i'll just say this...

we are all here coz of bad stuff we're going thru or have gone thru. we all have days where we feel useless, pathetic, wanna give up. all i can advise you is...don't give up, keep posting and lean on us when you need to...that's what we're all here for...to help each other hang in there and get thru.

and i know it's not much but sending some love, hugs and good thoughts your way coz you're worth it.

<font color="purple">In my short life here on Earth, I have encountered alot of people who are peices of *****. You, aren't one of them. You are possibly one of the strongest people I have ever met, and one of the nicest people too.

Those people who hurt you, they were NEVER right.
They were wrong, and you didn't deserve anybody to hurt you, nobody does. When you look at a baby, do you think "Wow, he's pathetic, he doesn't deserve to live."? No. We are all born deserving to love and to be loved, and the fact that you have been denied this through your life is the only thing that is sad.

The nature of life is to go between both bad and good, yes, these are some bad times, but it's impossible for them to stay bad (or just keep getting worse until you die) because that goes against the nature of life and the world. This hurt too, shall pass, and there will be a time for happiness.

You deserve love, and peace, and for things to get better. </font>

Hey I know how it feels this could have been my post a few months ago. Things have been better in the past, though you might have a hard time remembering it, and things will feel better in the future just stick in there. A lot of people are pulling for you. Sorry no fancy stuff yet I'm a newbie to this message board stuff.

The way I see it, if you have a good close friend named Zac, it means you are a very kind loving person because " you have to be special " to have a close friend.

I can also see that right now, you are worth a lot because many people here have replied to you, meaning they care about you, meaning you are important to them, meaning that you are lovable.

There are days when many people can't type anything maybe because they are scared but surely not because they are stupid. You are not stupid.

Nobody deserve to be hurt. Nobody and I'm sorry you were hurt.

Stay with us and we will help you see the light.

Stay safe!