[cureav]

Hi there,
this happened 2 years ago when I got a job in a local hospital as a physical therapist. Cause of high rate of corruption, the only way I could get a job with my diploma was through politics, buying a job through mafia, of if I had a cousin in powerful position. My parents called few numbers, one man came and we gave him the money for my job, and, as he said, the majority of the money went to hospital director. (The job is only for 1 year - replacement of a pregnant woman). And I got job. And everybody else employed there got their jobs in one of those 3 ways. I am raised pretty good, so I worked hard, and thought that maybe they'll keep me after that one year. I worked gladly a job that wasn't mine... Our relationships were so unfriendly.
After a few months, 'the boss', a female who had most connections in hospital (she was even beyond the boss and chief of that department; she had connections with drugs, but everybody were silenced about it) called me to the table to show me some brochures. She said "Hey, smell this brochure, isn't it strange...", and cause I was on distance with her, I took it and smelled it only briefly, but than she said "Come on, it wont bite you", I took a big smell of it. I cant remember the smell, wasn't anything strange to me. After a few minutes, when I got up from the chair, I felt so weak, I went to the next room, sat down on a chair with one hand on the table. I was like a drunk guy with 3% of consciousnesses that could only keep my position at that table. When I woke up, I looked at my mobile and figured out I was one hour without consciousnesses. I was sooooo angry, but I couldn't do nothing. I knew all the dynamic between my coworkers, but I also knew I can't quit cause my parents gave that money. My chief knew about it and he was secretly smiling. When I came home, my parents didn't believe me, they don't even today (I hate them for that). After my contract expired, I got fired.
Those days I felt I was followed by some people in case I would talk about what had happened. After all, it was a state (not private) hospital.

Can someone tell me what was that on that brochure? What could it be? I had several days after that huge paranoia, especially cause my family wouldn't believe me.
Uh, when I remember that time, that toxic environment, I got chills. I was so angry about myself and my stupid big trust to others and that team. After all, it all came down to fight for job position.

[Crazy Hitch]

Hello cureav

This seems to be quite a significant experience for you and I am very sorry to hear that it has caused you so much trouble.

Very honestly I have read through your post and I simply can not say what may have caused this reaction (simply I am not a medical expert at all) and I wouldn't want to give you a false answer.

This may be a case of something in which you may never find the exact answer to.

Sure; I mean members may come forth and give you suggestions on what they think it may be; but honestly one can not be 100% sure - based on the fact that it is quite a bit after the event with no hard test available.

So yes; I appreciate that this has caused you a great deal of paranoia for those days after the event; as you believe that something was placed there.

I found this good blog here on psych central. I was kind of thinking that whilst you may not get a 100% definitive answer; well; it may help you address something that is quite important her - how to move past this event (as you may never get an answer; and I wouldn't want to see this burden you forever if you can work out strategies to let this be)

Why Do We Dwell in the Past? | World of Psychology

[cureav]

Thanks Hooligan, it does not change a thing now if we find a clue what that could be, but I am sure it was something cause I remember the fatigue in my muscles while waking up, in the middle of the shift; there would be no chance to let myself to fall a sleep in so obvious place. I was avoiding after that everything from them - coffee or letting someone to buy me a breakfast. It was so creepy team, no job organization, no boundaries, hierarchy was like in a drug cartel .. like a cult; like she had a neo-nazi ideology.
Anyways, thanks for letting me share this. For a long time I kept this hidden, cause there were things happening that kept me silenced.

Thanks also for the link.

[Perna]

Colombia has a drug that smelling could influence one: Drug Turns Crime Victims Into Zombies

I would wonder though why the boss would use it on you? If you just go in the other room and "sleep" for an hour, what is the point? Did you ever find anything else wrong?

[avlady]

i think maybe you might have smelled something you may be allergic to too. i also believe you could have been drugged. people have to be careful that work in hospitals etc, there are some people that just can't be trusted there, i hope you can get over this good luck