[ElCambio]

I'm a recovering alcoholic. I never had DT or was drinking daily because I never had the money or the resources (I'm not of age yet). However, if I was living on my own and had the money, I would have been drinking daily. I started drinking alone almost immediately because I liked that I could drink as much as I want and not have to stop because we couldn't get caught. Getting drunk was the best feeling in the world, and I wanted to be like that all the time. My boyfriend at the time confronted me about it, and I tried to stop. I started relying on him to make me happy, but it just made me depressed and hopeless. We eventually broke up when he realized that I wasn't getting any better. I would stop for a few months but eventually get back to it. Plus, I had problems with cheating. He just had to let go. It was great for both of us.
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Es super difícil vivir mi vida sin un pedo. The only reason why I stopped drinking was because I eventually couldn't take the taste of hard liquor after a few weeks of not drinking. It just made me want to throw up. My tolerance for its harsh nature decreased. Also, being on Adderall made me want to stop, at least for a while.
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Where am I at now? Well, I want to move on to other drugs even though I know it's bad for me. I have been attracted to cocaine because of the drug's energetic nature. I think of that one Bobby Brown performance where he dropped his 8 ball on live TV, haha. He seemed to be having the time of his life. I don't plan on taking cocaine though because I've heard the high lasts for an extremely short time and it's not even that good. It's just very glamorized.
I also want to take ecstasy. It's nice how one loses a lot of their sensory for other people's body language. I also like how energetic and excited people seem to be while on it. I think of that one video I saw where this guy was in a club and he looked so high but seemed so happy and excited at the same time. I wish people were like that all of the time. I know this drug is also very dangerous, but the idea of it is very attractive...
I just probably needed to rant. I've been wanting to get high these past few hours. Thanks for reading.

[kaliope]

i am sorry to hear you are struggling right now. did you quit drinking with any help such as a 12 step program? maybe going to a meeting right now would be helpful. i have seen so many lives destroyed through drug use. i hope you can find something to distract you until this urge is gone.

[ElCambio]

Originally Posted by kaliope

i am sorry to hear you are struggling right now. did you quit drinking with any help such as a 12 step program? maybe going to a meeting right now would be helpful. i have seen so many lives destroyed through drug use. i hope you can find something to distract you until this urge is gone.

Thanks. No, I did it on my own. I'm alright for now. Thanks though.

[spondiferous]

I've been sober for quite awhile now and one thing that i've noticed is that when i do get the urge to get loaded (whatever the drink or drug may be), it goes away. But sometimes it lasts weeks at a time. Those are the scary times.

When I was early on in recovery, I attended both NA and AA although drinking was definitely always my bigger problem. But reading some of the stories in the back of the NA basic text triggered the hell out of me to use drugs that I had never even considered using before. Someone very wise who helped me greatly in my recovery used to always say, Anything that you haven't done, tack a 'yet' onto the end of it, and that's what's waiting for you out there in active drinking/using.

Best of luck.

[Mygrandjourney]

Originally Posted by kaliope

i am sorry to hear you are struggling right now. did you quit drinking with any help such as a 12 step program? maybe going to a meeting right now would be helpful. i have seen so many lives destroyed through drug use. i hope you can find something to distract you until this urge is gone.

+1 on this. The people you have observed appear happy due to being high, but think about that: Why do they need a substance to get that way? What is going on in their lives that has led them down this path? Do they have any sense of satisfaction when they're not high? Getting out and talking honestly can only help.

Originally Posted by ElCambio

I'm a recovering alcoholic. I never had DT or was drinking daily because I never had the money or the resources (I'm not of age yet). However, if I was living on my own and had the money, I would have been drinking daily. I started drinking alone almost immediately because I liked that I could drink as much as I want and not have to stop because we couldn't get caught. Getting drunk was the best feeling in the world, and I wanted to be like that all the time. My boyfriend at the time confronted me about it, and I tried to stop. I started relying on him to make me happy, but it just made me depressed and hopeless. We eventually broke up when he realized that I wasn't getting any better. I would stop for a few months but eventually get back to it. Plus, I had problems with cheating. He just had to let go. It was great for both of us.
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Es super difícil vivir mi vida sin un pedo. The only reason why I stopped drinking was because I eventually couldn't take the taste of hard liquor after a few weeks of not drinking. It just made me want to throw up. My tolerance for its harsh nature decreased. Also, being on Adderall made me want to stop, at least for a while.
--
Where am I at now? Well, I want to move on to other drugs even though I know it's bad for me. I have been attracted to cocaine because of the drug's energetic nature. I think of that one Bobby Brown performance where he dropped his 8 ball on live TV, haha. He seemed to be having the time of his life. I don't plan on taking cocaine though because I've heard the high lasts for an extremely short time and it's not even that good. It's just very glamorized.
I also want to take ecstasy. It's nice how one loses a lot of their sensory for other people's body language. I also like how energetic and excited people seem to be while on it. I think of that one video I saw where this guy was in a club and he looked so high but seemed so happy and excited at the same time. I wish people were like that all of the time. I know this drug is also very dangerous, but the idea of it is very attractive...
I just probably needed to rant. I've been wanting to get high these past few hours. Thanks for reading.

I will tell you straight up that drugs (and alcohol is a drug) will make your life a living hell. And I know this fact from personal experience.

Don't fall for the glamorization of drugs, for there is nothing-nothing-glamorous about drugs.

Pure, unadulterated hell.