[eggplantlife]

Hi.

i am not usually a drinker but these few weeks or might be a month, I have been drinking a lot. And to my surprise I have start out some days with a drink. I knew this is not good but it have been helping me a lot. But as history have shown, this is not a good approach to solve anything. I stopped smoking cig last year so I was very proud of it but now, I find another addiction makes me sad and I guess, I don't even gave the strength to be mad at myself.

This is all new to me. This kind of addiction. It really is.

Life is to turn around better for me so I do not need this to be part of my life. I can decide to not be it. I don't want to wait until it gets worse like my shopping therapy did to me. I don't need to continue abusing myself this way because it feels good.

I am kind of tired of doing harm to myself.
Anyway, reaching out as I did before. Like This is really new to me because the drinking actually have made me feel good and I really don't get a lot of those days.

Please give me strength. Right now, I am not doing well.

[waggiedog]

Hellow dear 'eggplantlife'. First of all hunny DON'T beat up on yourself. You have obviously had a lot of pressures and problems in your life, as you mentioned relying on shopping therapy to make you feel better, and the ciggies of course. I DO understand the shopping stuff as I did this only today! OK, I've never smoked BUT I use food to comfort me and pacify me (though I also starve myself as abuse and self harm). You could say I'm also an alcoholic in recovery, even though I haven't drank to access for around 6 years, I used to drink so much I blacked out every night AND my fiancée was a chronic alcoholic!! You are honestly NOT alone, lets face it, drink is so easy to buy...................no prescription, no visit to the Dr and garages (gas stations) and supermarkets are full of it at cheap prices.
You do sound well informed as to your own insight. How would it be best for you personally to cut down or stop? If you are drinking a lot each day, and should that be spirits, then stopping dead is dangerous. If you drink say, wine or larger you could try starting later in the day, it depends on how you can face it really. Do you drive? That would be a def incentitive to stop, drink driving is so dangerous, for you and other people and this is the one and only reason I don't drink now, I have to drive a lot. There are many times when I could die for a strong larger, but driving really stops me, id never live it down if I were stopped by the police, everybody in my little village would know!!!
Anyway, please stay with us and maybe contact a friend here if you have someone you can connect to, if not then feel free to message me and I'll try to encourage you. Good luck and YOU CAN DO IT hun!!