[cryingontheinside]

Between me and my mum we have figured out that my dad is getting drugs for my brother . no he is not a dealer but he has a contact . I see my dad several times a week because he is supporting me with my mental health. I have been craving drugs on an off for some time but luckily I lost all my contacts since moving . the drug he is getting for my brother was one of my drugs of choice . if I asked him him would probably say no because of my history with drugs and my mental health . but if I really wanted to I could I could probably persuade him although he will probably tell my mum. Well I'm not planning to ask him for any. Well not now anyway . but what if I get so depressed and desperate to feel better ? I don't like knowing that he can get them . yes I had figured out that he was getting drugs for my brother but I just ignored all the signs until my mum pointed it out to me recently . she has figured it out too. Its just not nice to know . I wish I didn't know . and also I'm mad at my brother . he stopped talking to me when he found out I took drugs even though he was doing it himself but I had a worse problem with it and moved on to other drugs too which are considered worse to some people . even after I stopped taking drugs he stopped talking to me and practically banned me from my mums house because he lives with her , even though the whole time he has been taking drugs and still is . my mum and dad are not living together . they have been separated a long time

[cryingontheinside]

Also I forgot to day my dad used to give me and my brother drugs even though we didn't ask him for any . he is probably part of the reason I had a problem with drugs . but he is such a good person . he helps me so much .

[Maven]

He doesn't sound like a good person. Perhaps he is too soft-hearted, because he won't say no to giving at least one of his sons poison. Maybe he's afraid to get your brother mad at him, but your dad is an enabler.

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Maven

He doesn't sound like a good person. Perhaps he is too soft-hearted, because he won't say no to giving at least one of his sons poison. Maybe he's afraid to get your brother mad at him, but your dad is an enabler.

I kind of take back what I said about my dad being so good. He's been shouting at me all morning to the point I burst into tears . its the first time I cried in probably a year or more . he's still at my house . he seems to of calmed down a bit now thankfully

[Maven]

I'm sorry. 😢

[Fuzzybear]

I’m sorry your dad was being mean

[Chulio]

It is so hard when you are still around people like that. Sometimes it seems impossible but you can still make it. Just do what is right for You. I had to get away from everybody I was involved with. I feel for you. That is a tough situation

[bizi]

How is it going?
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