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I actually signed up for 2 of the meal plans, one delivered on the 12th and one delivered on the 19th.
It was kind of impulsive as I was a bit messed up with drinking all of that rum.
But anyway, need to cancel them in a timely manner so we don't get charged full price and have them come again.
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Jeff and I went to the shrimp and petroleum festival in morgan city about an hour and a half away from home. We ate good bbq pork chop and white beans and potato salad. hubby had a crab burger and chicken on a stick which was delicious. We drank hurricanes and a punch drink which was good. watched a small parade, got several cups and some candy and a few beads. So that was fun! Walked under the overpass where all of the arts and craft vendors were selling their goods. Stayed out of the rain. Had boiled shrimp and corn and potatoes which were very good but too much. Gave the rest of the shrimp to some table mates.
Listened to the band play for a bit and headed back to lafayette.
Ate the rest of the chicken salad which was very good. We were invited to a cook out tomorrow. I am seeing a couple of clients tomorrow afternoon.So we will go there after I am finished.
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Sounds fun. And your food always sounds so good, compared to what I eat. I'd probably weigh a lot more if I lived where you do.

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went to a cook out drank rum drinkx2 at home before we went then over drank ther blacked out, knew that I got sick and ruined the party got sick on the floor and the sink. and almost in jeffs car. I don't remember eating dinner nor the rest of the evening. sigh

how embarrassing.
Have not done that in a while.
Wonder what happened?
sigh
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warning Drinking behavior disaster last night:
warning drinking behavior disaster last night:



I saw 2 clients in the afternoon, then we went to a friend house for a cook out. Prior to leaving I had 2 rum drinks quickly and jeff said I was drunk before we even got there. I had brought along some rum and a few cream sodas for mixing.
I don't remember much,After getting there because I blacked out. I threw up before we had dinner and after we had dinner.

I do remember throwing up in the living room and bathroom and almost in jeffs car coming home.
Jeff told me that I had called apologizing to paul(don't remember that), I did text him later and got a nice text back.....

I think my drinking plan on the weekends sucks

and need to come up with a different plan.
I need jeff to help me. He said he tried to get me to quit but that did not work out I grabbed the drink out of his hand he told me.

I apologized to jeff and thanked him for helping to clean up the mess.
He was very quiet last night when we got home. I had to drag the sordid details out of him.
This morning is a light morning, had a cancellation one of my clients passed away....
so I have time to type this out.
No hang over this morning, I feel great, guilty.... but great.
Hubby kissed me good bye like normal all is forgotten/forgiven.....
sigh
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got cellulitis from a fire ant bite on my fore arm.I went to a walk in clinic and got put on antibiotics and bactroban ointment 3 times a day. already took 2 doses. I am to use warm compresses 4 times a day. I used the moist heating pad tonight which worked like a charm though the rest of my arm is red from the heating pad. Jeff bought it for my neck and I have been using it on my back and it feels so good. You just heated it up in the microwave, 1min20seconds. the when it cools down I reheated it again, some how it produces a moist heat. It is a mystery to me. You don't get it wet. It creates its own moisture.
I am supposed to use warm moist compresses 3-4 times a day, which means I need to come home at lunch time to do the heating pad..
So get up early and do it then. 7;30, 12 :20, 5pm then 11pm
my friend gave me some skin care products that she uses which was really sweet of her but I used the cleanser and the mask and was oily one hour later. it is for dry sensitive skin. I have rosacea and hate to switch up my routine,. she said she thought the benzoperoxide was causing my face to be ruddy.
I agreed to have kelly do some procedure on my face will have that done when we get home from our trip the end of the month. It is a BBL, and she has to numb my face before she does it. She said it will lighten my face particularly my nose.I a little scared as i don't know what to expect. I am a wimp when it comes to pain.
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Bizi,

I'm sorry you had the bad drinking episode. I'm really struggling with staying sober too at the moment, although my drinking is deliberately limited.

Maybe we both need to work on accepting that we simply can't drink and focus on staying sober.

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Thak you!
no alcohol for 10 days because of the anti biotics.
we shall see.
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Jeff is a good man. Thank you for saying that. I apologized to him about him having to take care of me and ruined his evening too.
The swelling has gone down on my cellulitis but the redness is still there though not as much. I am using the bactroban 3 times a day and hot moist heating pad 3-4 times a day as instructed. Will do it again this evening before bed
I got a new electric tooth brush and got the kind oral b with a rotating head and an extension so there is more area that it brushes..hard to explain. the first one I did not like because it was too small and I could only put a small amount of tooth paste.
Since I have been on this diet I am hungry. I see Dr. Orazio my pdoc next week, she will be very disappointed that I have not lost weight since I have seen her and gained weight, which I am upset about too.
When I drink I gain weight.

It is as simple as that.

What is it going to take to stop drinking?
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[bizi]

I give up....
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[ArchieAus]

??? ?????

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I give in to alcohol....
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[ArchieAus]

I didn't think you Southern Belles ever gave up against adversity ? Perhaps you just need a little time to regain your strength.
It's easy to see anything less than total victory as failure , but that isn't true . Every win you have is a good thing.

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I will try to be Alcohol free monday thru thursday this week.
I just drank a shyt load this weekend....no control.
sigh
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Good luck with staying AF through the week.

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Thank you split!
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have a good week!

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This is what self care looks like today:
coffee in the am
Triple tail fish for lunch with shrimp sauce.
Dinner was baked salmon with orange and lemon marinade.
Went to the gym 5 minutes on stair master and 2 1/5 mile with incline at 5.
Watched seinfeld and sat with my heating pillow on my lower back cause it feels good.

took vitamins with night meds.
brushed teeth with electric oral b toothbrush flossed teeth which I had not done in years.
listerine mouth wash with fluoride for teeth.
did some neck stretches
washed face and applied moisturizer to forehead.
applied cream to cuticles took antibiotics 3 times a day for fire ant bite which is healing nicely just have some redness from the band aides
getting to bed late because hubby needed the computer for work so I wanted to post this really good day.
Drank sparkling water and chewed gum and remained alcohol free.
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Triple tailed fish …. must have been caught in Springfield near the nuclear reactor that Homer works in …
Well done !

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Originally Posted by ArchieAus

Triple tailed fish …. must have been caught in Springfield near the nuclear reactor that Homer works in …
Well done !

lol
have a good day!
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I was alcohol free monday thru thursday then tonight I stopped at 20 oz of beer, after work at fat pats. Did not drink any rum tonight though I could have.
I am really going to moderate my drinking....think I will throw out the rest of the rum.
self care.
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