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Me onto day 3 of my diet and not drinking means losisng weight. I gained 50 pounds over 3 years and I know that it was from drinking all of those craft beers.
So I am going to do a dry november, and see how much weight I can lose.
I will aim for a low carb diet with out getting crazy.
Meats, eggs, veggies(no really starchy ones), dairy and nuts. Only berries for fruits.
No flour, no sugar, no potatoes no rice.
NO BEER!
wish me luck
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I have never cooked with coconut flour. What about almond flour? I have an unopened bag of it in my cupboard.
I never bake so am intimidated to try a recipe.
I should try to bake with it tomorrow

while jeff is gone to play for a veterans concert...
I went last year, don't feel like going this year.
Maybe I will change my mind tomorrow

Sitting on the computer with my second cup of tea.

Lunch was a bowl of chicken and sausge gumbo, no bread or rice. And a bowl of cabbage and a mustard remulade dressing to make a kind of coleslaw. It was my only veggie today.

For dinner tonight I had the toppings of a pizza and did not eat the crust.
Spicy tomato sauce, freshly grated mozerella cheese, sun dried tomatoes, mushrooms, pepperoni and sausage and jalepino peppers with a basil drizzle at the end it was delicious. 2 small squares of dark chocolate.
(I guess that tomatoes are a veggie and so are mushrooms.)
Well I took measurements last night and really was depressed.
Things are bad. Not only has the scale gone up the inches put on have gone up, up, and up.
And I am determined to wear the old wedding dress costume next year.
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I ate eggs cheese, veggies(sauteed onions, peppers, mushrooms, and peppers), and sausage in a scram for breakfast today at the diner we go to on sunday mornings and I forgot: a side of steamed brocolli. yummy!
caffeine headache is getting better with my second cup of coffee.
I wonder if it could be my body in detox? no alcohol for 4th day when I was drinking daily for months? I promise I won't count days on line unless some one asks me specifically.
((((HUGS)))) to all who need them.
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Your headache could very well be part of withdrawal. I was told by several Dr's and addiction counsellors, that by day 4 and 5 the last traces of alcohol are leaving your system, so if you've been a daily drinker, you'll definitely be feeling the affects. Try to take it easy today, if you can, and no that it will get better.

Good luck with the no drinking in Nov.

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Thank you split,
head ache is gone today....ready to have coffee.I took a shower and washed my hair!!!!!!
Forgot how many days it had been.
geesh!
weighed in at 181.3.
So am happy that the numbers are coming down.
I know that all that beer I was drinking bloated me up. So this is water weight that I am losing.

I still like the numbers going down.
I hope that my stating my weight doesn't trigger anyone.
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Curried "chicken salad" salad. So lots of greens, oil and vinegar, tomatoes, cucumbers, about 1/2 cup of chicken salad, I ate it slowly so I was full. It seemed like a small serving, there were more greens, which slowed me down eating.
I had lunch with karen again.
Have asked her if she would want to go to the gym with me on a saturday, I have the membership level where I can bring a friend, she said yes.
So I am happy about that. She is disabled and I am not sure how long she could go on the bike, her choice of the equipment. I told her that I would be there an hour but they have chairs to sit down on if she needed a break or to wait on me.
Dinner tonight was lemon pepper talapia sauteed in coconut oil and some cabbage/veggie soup from sandras health food cafe. It was a little spicy which I like.

I ate one ounce of cheese because I felt like dinner was too light and I feared snacking later on. I do have almonds to snack on later if need be.
I am still having hot flashes so I fanned myself and ate ice which helped a lot. I also drank a stevia (all natural sweetener derived from a plant) sweetened sparkling orange drink. Then I drank a black cherry drink also with stevia.
anxious to see the scale tomorrow. I won't be too upset if it shows a gain because I have not gone to the bathroom in a couple of days. TMI
I will probably have a low carb fudge bar later, oh and I had 2 small dark chocolate pieces after dinner.

I hope everyone is having a good evening.
Polls closed about an hour ago. We voted this after noon.
I think that some of my votes canceled jeff out but he doesn't need to know that.
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181.6 this raining morning.
did not have a fudge bar or almonds to snack on which is good.
I think the piece of cheese really helped me to stay full. So I did not feel hungry.
YAY!
Got up early to see how the elections went....still not done completely will see if the dems take over the house by how much????
Have a great day yall!
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Drinking black cherry cola sweetened with stevia called Zevia.
I drink at least one of these a day and sometimes 2.
In the health food store that I eat at most days, they serve them for $.99.
At the store I can get a 6 pack for $4.
At whole foods I would easily spend $6-7 for one beer.
Which led to another then a cheese tray, and not make good food choices.
For lunch I had meat balls with spaghetti sauce over quinoa tabouli with a side of collards.
For dinner: Had a pork chop sauteed in coconut oil and a side of cauliflower,
then 2 small dark chocolate squares.
Half an avocado yummy! and some more tabouli, which was so good!!!!

Since I am dieting and not drinking alcohol
I find myself thinking about them all of the time.

I did a little bit of cleaning tonight, wiped down the laundry room window ledge it was filthy!!!! and I also cleaned half of my bathroom floor which was very dirty, with hairspray. I washed the purple bath mat because it was matted down with hair spray as well.
now it is clean and fluffy. I feel better about myself for doing these things.

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We went to a friends house for dinner. His daughter was there as well.
We've been friends our whole time that we lived here since 2001.
I have social anxiety even with them. They are laughing and having a good time while I sit there uncomfortable and not participating.
Dieting and not drinking suck!
They were drinking gin and tonics. I brought diet drinks.
they had ice cream treats for desert, I just watched them knowing that I would come home and have a diet fudge bar. And I did.
This addiction thing is kicking my butt.
How will I ever do thanksgiving????
We will join a bunch of folks at a friends house for a pot luck dinner.
I usually bring a green bean casserole and crawfish dip/crackers.
I followed the no sugar, flour,potatoes,rice diet but how can i do this on thanksgiving?
most every one will be drinking wine, jeff will bring himself some beer.
I will bring diet sodas like I did tonight.
how can I say this any stronger.

I WANT TO DRINK!!!!! and I want to eat what ever but that is not what will happen if I want to lose weight. I need to sacrifice some to lose in the big picture.
Would an ice cream treat really make that much of a difference?

anyway, I feel I am babbling.
curtailing 2 of my addictions at the same time is f ucking hard and that is all I really needed to say.
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Great suggestion Innerzone!
Thank you guys for all of your support.
Had lunch with a girl friend and had salmon and squash and collards and an avocado.
Today is day 9AF and I feel much better. I actually went to whole foods and sat at the bar alone.
I visited with the bartenders and drank water while every one was drinking either a craft beer or wine.
Instead I ordered food for dinner: It took a while to get there and they played trivia, I watched until my food came.
Double pepper jack cheeseburger with bacon and mushrooms(no bun), and a huge side salad,
with romaine lettuce, lots of grape tomatoes, purple onions and cucumbers with ceasar dressing.
It was very good. I used mayo and mustard on the burger.
Not sure of the carbs but I am good with it.
It was rainy and cold today and windy, reason it felt so cold.
By tuesday night it will be in the 30's....burr!
I got my nail fixed at the shop(Vi nails) where we are becoming like family.
I love having gel nails, it makes my nails so strong.
Am seeing a client in the morning then lunch with jeff at chris' po boys,
chicken and sausage gumbo, then get my hair colored and cut.
Then I have one more new client to see out of town. She has an ingrown toenail that needs to be treated.
She is 95 years old and refuses to leave the house to see a foot doctor.....
A friend referred me and I feel obligated to go see her.
I hate to hear of someone in pain and having an ingrown toe nail. they are really painful,
so of course I will go to help her out.
Sunday we are going to see the movie about the band "queen"...should be good.

I told Jeff that I was probably going to remain AF until our vacation the middle of December for the holidays. I told him how awkward I felt at his friends house for dinner on thursday night. I felt like I could not get out of there soon enough. They were all drinking gin and tonics. I brought 3 cans of diet pop and that helped a lot. Then there is Thanks giving at the pot luck, it will be a real challenge for me. Maybe I should drive separately I can say I feel ill. These are really nice people!




Hope every one has a nice weekend.
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yay!
178.8 this morning...
woke up early, having my 2nd cup of coffee.
Turned on the heat yesterday a sthe house was cool at 68 Degrees.
It is supposed to get down into the 30s in a couple of days.
Burr!!!!
my folks had their first snow yesterday in northern indiana.
some one said we are in for a hard winter.
I hope not!
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Stopped by the nail place to get yet another nail fixed.
Had a good morning client then great gumbo and a bowl of
cabbage remulade dressing with Jeff.
Went to my hair appointment and the student did not do a good job. She put to much product in my hair...it looked greasy after blow drying it...I thought that it was still wet. So i reported her and after ward forgot to pay. Called when I remembered and they said to not worry about it, they took it off my bill which I thanked them several times.
My afternoon client out of town was very nice. her daughter trimmed her toe nail back so it was no longer ingrown so I just sanded down the hard skin that remained and trimmed the rest of her toe nails. She said it felt better! Thank goodness!
Came back into town and got home around 6pm. Cooked chopped up cabbage and onions and peppers with chimmichuri sauce and added pieces of chicken that jeff cooked for a stir fry. It turned out very good.
Tomorrow is veterans day.
I am one so we are going to texas road house for lunch(free meal for me).
Then we are going to BJ's brew house for a free meal there for dinner.
some time for the matinee, we are going to see the movie about the band called Queen.
It should be good.
The temps are getting colder as the weekend progresses.
lows in the 30's this week. burr!
I hope yall have a nice sunday.
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Thought I would elaborate my day:
Just got back from texas road house with some friends of ours who are both veterans and we were treated to a lunch. I had pulled pork that tasted just like their ribs and was a huge portion that I took home more than half the order. It had a sweet BBQ sauce so I knew it was not on my diet but then took home the mixed veggies and ate a cup of chili which was very good. Then hubby and I and another friend are going to see the movie about the band queen. It sounds so good. We will meet back up with our friends to go to dinner at the bj's brew house for dinner on them as veterans.
Went to khols and bought a shirt half off with coupons, it is a pretty peacock blue
doing laundry....it has warmed up to 60 so it is nice outside.
The movie was great!!!! really well done about the band named Queen. I kept having hot flashes taking off my sweater then getting cold and putting it back on.sigh
menopause go away.
We went to dinner with same friends that we did lunch with for dinner at a brew house and it was good. I had an ahi tuna cooked med/rare and a large salad with a light vinaigrette which was delicious.
I did a bit of filing for work this evening am going to head to bed early as I have to get up at 730am to start my day tomorrow. I have 5 clients to see.
Alcohol free(AF) for the 11th day. Weight 179.3 going down slowly so that is good. I knew that I would lose weight if I stopped drinking those fattening beers.
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Way to go on 11 days AF and on eating healthy. Glad you're seeing results on the scales.

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Thanks split!
Have a great day!
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I don't really no what I did to my back but it really hurts. It started hurting a bit last night. Had hubby put one of those lidocaine patches. Which I think is helping. I could hardly turn over in bed. Could hardly put on my pants, had to sit down to do that.
What/how am I going to be able to work????
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Whole foods for dinner went great! She loved the food that she picked off of the salad bar. I enjoyed my meal too, stayed low carb. (shrimp, marinated red peppers and yellow ones and mushrooms with spinachand cheddar cheese and Parmesan cheese then microwaved it until the spinach was cooked). Delicious.

The concert was great!

Karen really enjoyed herself, so did I....

except for restless legs and I had long underwear on because it is cold here, and they were getting itchy. I could not sit still. I hope I did not bother anyone. This happens at most events but it was bad tonight. ugh!
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Glad you enjoyed the concert, and your food sounds yummy. I was lucky when I went through menopause, I didn't get hot flashes.

I want to go see the movie on Queen, I've heard really good things about it.

And I'm with you in hoping we have an easy winter.

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Thanks split, we enjoyed the movie as well as the way we were with lady gaga. oscar worthy in my opinion so is queen movie. 2 great movies in a matter of weeks apart. finally something worth seeing at the movie theatre.
have a great day!
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180 this morning buck naked....sigh the weight is coming off very slowly.
sigh
Made it 15 days Alcohol free. Good resolve...wish the weight would go down as that is my incentive to being AF.

After 6 days, I finally showered and washed my hair.
I feel clean all over.
Am running behind this morning as I over slept...must have needed the sleep.
I love this new skin care product that I have been using a few weeks now.
It is made by mad hippie and I got it from whole foods but you can order it from amazon for cheaper and I will do that next time.
It is a vit c serum, There is a dropper to use as it is highly concentrated. I put drops on my face, about 7 drops covers my face and neck.
My skin just soaks it up and feels lovely.
I would highly recommend it.
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I am not following a diet per say....just watching my carb intake.
but not too much like for dinner I had left overs from yesterday lunch.
They called it kibbe...it was nothing like kibbe.
there were pieces of chicken and spinach and lentils and brown rice.
It was a baked casserole, and very good.
There is not much that I don't like there.
So I ate some brown rice....not going to fret over it.
And besides I had a big craving to stop by fat pats and knew that if I did I would eat bad bar food and drink too much...so I thought about eating my left overs and then I remembered that they have a live chat going on at 8 and did not want to miss that. So here I am waiting for the chats to begin.
I drank a stevia flavored black cherry soda. It was very good then decided to make some tea. now I am drinking the tea and catching up on the forums.
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Finally!!!!
179.7 this morning. I feel confident that it will remain under 180 now.
But will shall see.
I know I should not weigh daily but a .2 move in the right direction is motivation for me to keep going on this diet and not drinking alcohol.
I am so over weight I can't tell that I have

lost 7.5 pounds( mostly water weight). I drank so much halloween...sigh
Made it 16 days thanks to a chat room at HAMS site that they have on friday nights from 8pm-midnight.
I watched 2 ted talks, one on shame the other on vulnerability.
Very good!...
It is supposed to be nice this weekend...need to get in the yard to do some clean up. I don't think it will rain today. And I think it should be in the 60's perfect weather for working in the yard.
Feeling pretty good this morning other than my back which still hurts a bit but so much better than before.

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178.1 this morning. YAY! 17 days AF.
Had a great brunch this morning.
3 eggs scrambled with spinach and a side of steamed spinach with a side of smoked sausage. It was delicious!
Got out my recipes for crawfish dip that I am making for the pot luck thanksgiving. I am also making green bean casserole.
The hostess said I could bring karen.

Karen and I are going to the dance performance at the school of musics auditorium this afternoon( I saw this last night and would like to see it again) so we are going. Then she wants to go to whole foods to do some shopping.
When I was there with her last week, she loved the grape leaves on the salad bar.
I am going to see if she has a microwave.
If she would use one I will buy her one, that is if she doesn't have one already. She is very particular about everything regarding food. So she may not believe that they are safe... in addition to being a vegetarian she is gluten free.

sigh
she is almost anorexic.
I feel sorry for her.
She doesn't have any pots or pans.
I am going to suggest she try these individual veggie options that microwave in a couple of minutes, I believe they are non gmo.



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Your breakfast sounds yummy, and the dance performance sounds like a nice thing to go to.

It's nice of you to want to help out your new friend Karen.

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Thank you split!

I really enjoyed the dance again, so did she.
It was almost 4pm and she had not eaten anything and she was a little woosy when she first got up.
So that was the first order of business when we got to whole foods.
She ate off of the salad bar and unfortunately they did not have any greek grape leaf dolmas finger food like last week. I snacked on some samples of cheese that we very good!

She made a wonderful salad and enjoyed that very much.
WE discussed how she has only been eating one meal a day and how she has been losing weight.
She agreed to changing, to twice a day.
She already has a microwave and doesn't want a pan to cook eggs in then she would have to do dishes and that is too much for her., except she wants a pan to boil eggs in.
She has chronic exhaustion and pain from a car accident in 2001 and then an electrocution a year and a half ago. She is lucky to be alive!Q

I have to say that it took a lot of patience on my part because at the grocery store she reads all of the ingredients to check for dairy, wheat,soy,sugar. She is on a very strict diet and it has to be organic eggs and free range too. and everything that she will eat is non gmo.
I was very tired after shopping with her and really wanted a drink.


Tonight I ordered some protein bars a few different flavors to see if I like them and will give them to her to see if she likes them before I buy a box, they are on sale right now. They take up to a month to be made and shipped to me. That is a long time. No instant gratification here!

Dinner was chicken with an indian sauce and a side of cauliflower carrots and brocolli mix that was very good all mixed together.
had 2 squares of dark chocolate.
I bought a case of stevia flavored sparking water drinks.
will drink them in the evening when I get the munchies.
I am chewing gum...my stand by for keeping my mouth busy.
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