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I need to quickly write this post as it is late and I have not gotten ready for bed yet.
I saw my chiropractor today and he examined my ankle more He thought it was tendonitis and a sprain of my ankle. He thinks I should go to PT for cryo therapy ultrasound treatments.
Jeff is a way and I don't do well with him gone.

I was surprised this morning with a card telling me to go to the living room then photo can to find a mango and another note telling me that he would give me another clue soon. and then later in the day he said to go to the entertainment cabinet and on the top shelf we have an xfiles scully figure. He said look under her foot. BUT I had to wait to do it thursday morning well I can say that I waited now that it is after midnight.
This is all very sweet. He is a good man. He will be in colorado until sunday.

I am behind in my paperwork.
I hope to see carol tomorrow night.

I saw a new client in the hospital today her nails were awful...thankfully she soaked them before I got there. It took me a while to get there and find a parking spot on the top floor....and it took me a while to give her the pedicure. Glad that is done. I will see her when she goes back home in 3 months.
now I need to get ready for bed and find that note!

It was a card with instructions to find our 1st wedding anniversary memento.
Well I can't remember what that is!!!!!
sigh
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It was a card with instructions to find our 1st wedding anniversary memento.
Well I can't remember what that is!!!!!
sigh
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Lol, blame it on our psych drugs!

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Bizi, That sounds very sweet of Jeff.

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I need to get to bed...
sigh
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We went the concert last night: Sam Bush and his "new grass" band.
We enjoyed the concert.
Today I went to the antique car show by myself...jeff did not want to go.

It is a beautiful day today.
Tonight we are going to baton rouge for dinner at the chimes restaurant and then the 13th gate haunted attraction that we go to yearly. Jeff is making a cd of scary haunted stories for us to listen on the hour journey east.
He put up 25 tombstones yesterday in the front yard...it is a lot of work but is so happy to have them.

After lunch of gumbo ......We picked out pumpkins today at this church that has the pumpkin patch on pallets so you really have to scour thru all of the pallets to find the perfect pumpkin.
My fingers are healing nicely if I could just leave them a lone.
hugs to those who need them:
(((((((HUGS)))))))
bizi

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Wow - sounds like you're really getting into the Halloween season. That's a lot of headstones.
I hope you got a good pumpkin. Do you roast the seeds? I can remember being a little kid, and when we carved the pumpkin, my Mom would roast the seeds, with some salt, and we'd eat them.

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Drum Roll.....
It has been months since I had an AF day in.

Happy about this.
weighed 190 this morning
It was a low carb day.
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AF day?

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Originally Posted by TunedOut

AF day?

sorry

af= alcohol free.

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Carol my AA sponsor discharged me today because I was not "doing AA".
I understand....I will miss her. I have been seeing her weekly for several months. She said I have many issues and she can't be my therapist.
She wrote me a lovely card......hugged good bye.
I suppose if I ever go to AA she can be my sponsor again.

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Carol my AA sponsor discharged me today because I was not "doing AA".
I understand....I will miss her. I have been seeing her weekly for several months. She said I have many issues and she can't be my therapist.
She wrote me a lovely card......hugged good bye.
I suppose if I ever go to AA she can be my sponsor again.
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Bizi-
Do you have a therapist you see regularly?
Hugs to you concerning your discharge.

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I just started seeing my old therapist again Robin. I will see her every 2-4 weeks.
made it 2 nights alcohol free AF.
down 2 pounds and finished billing.
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3 nights AF
187, down 3 pounds
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I skipped a halloween party tonight because I am so heavy and dieting and not drinking and the temptation would be too great. I usually drink to deal with anxiety in social situations. Hubby understood.

Maybe next year.....

Both my thumbs have been chewed on. I hate this nasty habit.
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Originally Posted by TunedOut

Bizi-
Do you have a therapist you see regularly?
Hugs to you concerning your discharge.

I have a therapist that I see off and on 1-2 times per month.
I just started seeing her again.
Her name is Robin and I like her very much.
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Well I made it one week alcohol free!
down 4.5 pounds. yay!
I know this is water weight but still fun to see the numbers go down!

Can't remember if I shared that I have a new great niece.
She is adorable.
Her name is Emerson Lou.
She is one week old.
My twin sister is there visiting....she is in heaven....she has wanted to be a grandma for a long time.

My business is slow overall for the year....not good.

Hubby decorated the yard with 25 tombstones for halloween.
We usually have a lot of kiddos but am afraid it is going to rain this year. I have bags full of candy. The inside of our house is a mess!
The university orchestra is having a halloween concert tonight. It should be good.

I think the rains start tomorrow.

I slept great last night first time not waking up to go pee. I slept a solid 7 1/2 hours straight. I think it was because I was alcohol free.

hugs to those who need them
((((((HUGS)))))))
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Well I made it one week alcohol free!
down 4.5 pounds. yay!

I slept great last night first time not waking up to go pee. I slept a solid 7 1/2 hours straight. I think it was because I was alcohol free.

This is great news!

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Good for you Bizi!

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Halloween went well, almost ran out of candy. There were a couple hundred kids. 11days Alcohol free. a solid 3 pounds down since 10-21-19 my great nieces birthday. My twin Gretchen is visiting her in new york, they spent a week with the infant and is loving every minute. This is her first grand child. The baby's name is Emerson Lou. We have not had a new baby in the family in 25 years. I think she will be spoiled. lol She has to go back to Indy tomorrow.

It is supposed to be 41 low for the night and high tomorrow is 63. with winds gust up to 20mph. so it will be in the 50's most of the afternoon and windy. It is homecoming foot ball game tomorrow and we have to go to the game. My hubby won distinguished professor and they are presenting him along with the other winners. There will be free food and drinks there.

I don't want to sabotage my diet.
I am going to wear my long underwear. and parka. If I get cold then my Raynauds flares up in my fingers and toes, they turn white and burn.
I know that some of you have had snow already, I feel for you.
Remember to set your clocks back Saturday night. Love fall back!
I am back to having a bandaid on my thumb so that is not good.
Hattie our cat who has cancer on her back continues to lose weight.
Jeff does the dressing changes every night to the wound. She doesn't seem to be in any pain that we can tell. To hold the dressing in place he uses a thunder coat like for anxiety. It wraps around her body and velcros in place. It is very effective.....even so Hattie has been able to wiggle out of it a few times......
anyway.
Carol from AA let me go.....maybe I mentioned that already?
Saw Robin my therapist. I like her and feel that she can help me.
Have been a bit anxious, antsy....
called my pdoc about starting me on a medication the combines naltrexone and welbutrin for weight loss. She said no because she felt that could trigger mania....sigh I am impatient to lose this weight.
I hope the restless legs were a one night occurrence and not something that happens all of the time. I had to take 1mg of ativan to calm myself down. I am not supposed to take benzos....oh well these will last for quite a while. When they run out I will get them on line.
I send hugs to those who need them:
(((((((HUGS)))))))
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I cheated on my diet this evening at the homecoming football game.
Jeff was being presented as the distinguished professor of the year, and
We were on the 3rd floor VIP box with free food. I forgo the drinks hubby drank some gin and tonics.
And I ate: 2 red velvet cake balls, 3 spicy chicken salad pin wheels, one pork egg roll, 4oz of beef brisket and 1/2 cup of pineapple.
not too too bad.
I am not counting carbs....just watching them. I had gumbo for lunch. chicken and sausage it was good!
It was crisp out side so I wore long underwear and a turtle neck under a short sleeved shirt. warm socks. and a coat. I came with gloves but did not use them.
Jeff had on a short sleeve shirt, he thought he had a sweater in the car but did not.
We left before the final play...trying to beat traffic. Our team won for sure.
That will be the last foot ball game I attend.
I am not a fan.
I was happy to support Jeff since He did tell me that I had to go.
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Since I have been AF my internet usage has gone up. I am constantly late for things in the morning.
Have been skipping self care tasks at night as well. like not brushing my teeth or washing my face. Last night I did not put on any of my night time facial products.
acne med, eye cream, hydrating mist, cereve mosturiser on my neck regenerist moisturiser on my dry outer edges of my face. It was after midnight already.
I have been cutting back on taking my supplements because it takes time setting them up.
sigh
My picking has increased. Last night I just ripped off a piece of dry skin. and of course bled. I put a band aide on it. It is very painful this morning.
I went into a chat room last night and the moderator...no one else was in there, pointed me to an article about skin picking and that led me to excoriation disorder.
I believe I have this to a lesser extent.
I wonder what the treatment for it is?

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N-ACETYL CYSTEINE, an Amino acid supplement. My doctor ordered me this 600mg twice a day for the compulsive picking. Very happy to try this. I just ordered it from Amazon so it should be here in a few days. Maybe it will help with my other compulsions?????
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Entertained a couple of guest artists and his fiance Julie. the mens names I can't think of they are Indian...and I am not good with names. Two are vegetarians.

We went out to dinner twice. The 5 of us ate at a Thia place called bang koc thia. I had a shrimp(that was over cooked) coconut soup that ended up being too spicy and I choked because of it. It was very good otherwise and I had a quart left over...had ordered a potsize. We shared an order of coconut ice cream...I ate more than I should have. I was delicious!!!!!!!


The concert was great.
The men played together, one played a sitar and the other a type of drum. They were very good. The small audience clapped loudly so they felt good about it.


Tonight We ate a this place called chopsticks and it was very good. I had hot and sour soup which was good. then Jeff and I split a pot of mixed meats and veggies it was not too spicy.

I did have one medium size egg roll.
They gave us their left overs which was so nice of them.

Every one drank alcohol but me. I did not miss it all!

I really did not think of it at all which is great!

I may need to take one of them to the airport tomorrow will see.

Jeff is picking up 2 of them tomorrow morning at 10 but he has a rehearsal after lunch and the concert is at 3pm, a veterans day concert.

I have much paperwork to do and 2 loads of laundry.
I would like to go to the concert....
but I really need to be disciplined!

It is cold for us....40's
Hugs to those who need them.
(((((((HUGS)))))))
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I was just looking back at my notes and I weighed 137 on 11-1-15.
four years later I weighed 192....That is 55 pounds!
I blame the weight gain on drinking. I was drinking fattening craft beers and many of them. And some of the meds that I was on did not help:abilify, seroquel, zyprexa.Now am on lithium so don't know if that is a weight gainer or not...I think it is. Supposedly geodon is weight neutral.
So I have lost 5 pounds so am happy about that. 10% lost.
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25 days AF
182 Lost 8 pounds in less than 4 weeks!
feeling really good right now.

I am meeting some residents at a senior living apartment complex tonight. Giving a free in-home pedicure to a lucky winner. Bought some goodies and will provide hand massages. It will be their happy hour at 5pm...not sure how long it will last. wish me luck! I need new clients!!! business has been down quite a lot this year for some reason. I am sponsoring a bingo at a senior center once in January and again in February.

Have a great weekend yall!
hugs to those who need them
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi