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Bizi is bizi
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#281
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same here split.... ((((HUGS)))) bizi __________________ 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, 4-5 peri-colace for chronic constipation multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine at noon PRN Remeron 15mg at night, zyprexa10mg under tongue, requip2mg. |
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#282
Thanks Bizi,
Had a good meeting with my addictions Dr. on Fri. (before going to the bar). She offered to let me join her aftercare group, but you have to be abstinent for it. It conflicts with a CBT group I want to do, but maybe in Jan. She also told me about a stress management group that's on Fri's, that I'm going to try to get into. It's really hot here today, so the temptation to go to a bar is really strong. But I won't. splitimage |
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#283
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Sorry you ended up drinking. I used to think I’d be able to drink at more acceptable amounts, but I suck at limiting myself so all the while I don’t pick a drink up I should be ok. The minute I do I know I’ll go all out so yeah, trying to stick to sobriety. I hate that I might not ever be able to drink again but I guess it’s for the best. __________________ Tired of feeling lost, tired of letting go. Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down. Tired of wasting breath, tired of nothing left. Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down. Failure. Failure - Breaking Benjamin |
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#284
Glad it was easier than you expected and that you got to enjoy more bands. That's always a good thing.
Yeah, the thought of not drinking again kind of freaks me out, I just have to remember that even though it may take a while, going back to drinking always ends badly for me. splitimage |
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#285
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__________________ | |Up and down |And in the end it's only round and round |Pink Floyd - Us and Them | |bipolar II, substance use disorder, ADD |lamictal, straterra | |
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#286
I hear you UpDownAround, about fantasizing about drinking at some point in the future. Unfortunately I've let myself drink enough now, that I'm back to pretty regular drinking. It's never gotten out of control - but I'm spending money i don't have on it, and I know I'd be better off not drinking. I'm just having trouble getting up the desire to be abstinent again, because I know it will be hard, and because I still want to drink.
Maybe I just need to tell myself to suck it up and stop, even though I don't want to. splitimage |
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#287
Disability attorney day for my Husband. His court date is Sept. 17 so this was a prep. His attorney seemed very gentle and soft spoken and a bit spacey...like it was the first time she had ever seen his file. I hope she's assertive in the court room. My disability atty. was a Tiger with a capitol T and I won.
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#288
I was prescribed Vyvanse 2-3 weeks ago. I picked it up at the pharmacy, took 7 pills out of the bottle and gave the other 23 to my mom so she can dispense 7 pills a week.
I took one, felt anxiety then tried a second day so I took another one the next day and decided that it's not good for me. I had 5 left for like 2 weeks in my bed side table. Today I gave my mom 5 pills and told her to bring the 28 pills back to the pharmacy. Proud of myself .. being a severe stimulant addict and all.. trying a total of 19 or so different stimulants including research chemicals, meth, coke, crack, bath salts etc.. I love this coffee that I'm drinking though! =P |
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#289
Good for you Desoxyn for recognizing that the med was bad for you. Given your history, I'm kind of surprised they even prescribed it.
I'm struggling with really wanting to drink, but fortunately don't have the money for it. I'm really going to try to stay sober. Just take it a day at a time I guess. splitimage |
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Bizi is bizi
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#290
here and alcohol free 2nd to being on antibiotics. for 10 days.
bizi __________________ 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, 4-5 peri-colace for chronic constipation multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine at noon PRN Remeron 15mg at night, zyprexa10mg under tongue, requip2mg. |
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#291
454 days.
Had back surgery a week ago, and having to take pain meds. Benzos and narcotics are my things; I like pills the most. I thought this was going to be really hard to handle, but so far, it's going okay. But also, so far, I've been in a lot of pain so I've been having to take them as often as allowed. I put an alarm on my phone and I don't take them until the alarm goes off. My mom was going to hold on to them and give me a day at a time, but once I was home, I was uncomfortable with that and didn't want to inconvenience anyone by having them come over often to give me pills. So I've had them in my possession. But it has gone well, so far. __________________ Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain |
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#292
Childofchaos,
I'm sorry you're in pain, but good for you for managing your pills responsibly. Hope you feel better soon. Day 3 for me today and feeling better. Going to a double recovery meeting this morning, and then an appointment with my T, followed by an appointment with my pdoc. It'll be a long day. Hope you all have a good and sober Thurs. splitimage |
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#293
4 months without alcohol or drugs except for a week long overtaking of Adderall in July. Happy to say I did not get the script for Adderall refilled.
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#294
Way to go zijax. That's awesome.
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#295
Good job childofchaos831! 😀
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#296
Good morning everyone,
On to day 4. I'm very proud of myself for not drinking yesterday. I got money that wasn't in the budget which was a huge trigger, but I told myself if I didn't drink I could treat myself to chicken fried rice for dinner, and I stayed sober. Had a good meeting with my pdoc yesterday. He was surprisingly ok, when I told him, I'd been taking more of one of my meds than was prescribed. He said it was safe, and he'd rather me do that than drink or misuse other of my meds. Today I'm going out to run errands - will be moderately tempted to drink, but should be ok. Hope you all have a good and sober Fri. splitimage |
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#297
I still want to always drink even though I am sober these days I don’t think a day goes by that i don’t think of drinking. There is lots of stress in my life right now and I used to return to the bottle.
So tired but have a cold and watching for a fever. In and out of psychosis thanks to this cold. They changed the layout on I Am Sober app...it’s confusing now and looks ugly. I have broken the 4K$+ saved apparently since I stopped drinking. 1153days sober courtesy of the app. I sprained my ankle when I stepped off curb into a pothole the next day went to take a pic and they were filling the hole. . Bloody city why wasn’t it marked and why was it in the middle of a crosswalk? __________________ Love, Light and Happiness!!! |
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Bizi is bizi
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#298
I am sorry you hurt your self.
I hate accidents. bizi __________________ 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, 4-5 peri-colace for chronic constipation multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine at noon PRN Remeron 15mg at night, zyprexa10mg under tongue, requip2mg. |
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#299
Day 6 here and feeling better about sobriety. I'm going to keep going to the double Recovery meetings as I like them.
And fortunately I don't have the money to drink. splitimage |
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__________________ | |Up and down |And in the end it's only round and round |Pink Floyd - Us and Them | |bipolar II, substance use disorder, ADD |lamictal, straterra | |
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