[circles5]

Hi.
My lifes a mess. Ive got a lot of mental health issues. As a result im housebound and socially isolated.
Recently its my AVPD and childhood trauma that are keeping me stuck.

So after 15 years of trying different drugs and meds.... ive found heroin.
And i really like it... i dont know what to do about that. Im not physically dependant yet. But i certainly will be if i continue.
Problem being i dont care enough about myself to avoid inflicting a heroin addiction on myself. I also really like how it smoothes over all the rough edges of my psyche.

Ive been suicidally depressed for 2 months.. i had to fo something about it.
The doctors refused me any meds bar ssris - which dont do $##! for me...
I dont know what to do about this. Im seeing the doctors again today but im skeptical theyll come up with anything worthwhile.. theyre not a very good 'team'

C5

[greentires4me]

What I can tell you about heroin sometimes it’s cut with fentanyl. I know lots about drugs because I live in a place where there is lots of users of drugs. And they keep me well informed. Just be careful!

Never use alone always with another person around in case something happens.

Do you inject it or smoke it?

[circles5]

Hi. thanks for the warning on fent. very pertinent as thats easily the biggest danger with heroin imo. Ive been smoking it.. never going to touch needles, that's a step too far for me.

Ive been using six days in a row. Ive been addicted to different opiates in the past. So im worried due to kindling im already addicted. I woke up feeling pretty bad today.
Im not sure what to do... this sucks..

[greentires4me]

Sometimes when people do down(heroin) they used an upper like side(speed). So they don’t feel like poop It’s like forever chasing that high I figure.

[Sleepyspoon]

I said I would never put a needle in my arm too I would just drop it if you can I’ve been doing hard drugs like that for about 6years trust me as much as I miss it there not worth the trouble it brings just go through the sickness and break the cycle I feel for you half my drug use was heron then I switched to coke n meth been clean for 5days since my last relapse

[Sleepyspoon]

I’m 26 now and pretty much started with methadone Xanax and opanas when I was around 16 self medicating is one thing I’m no angel but I have had several runnins with the law and life choices I’ll never be able to fix no matter how much I wish I could please don’t ruin your life if you don’t have to