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~*glass_owl*~ · Nov 26, 2020 at 10:12 PM

Sober for another night. Spent productive, not harmful time on the computer. managed to eat, see family and friends and get goals done. I even cleaned my dishes, look at me!

splitimage · Nov 27, 2020 at 06:19 AM

That's great. Keep it up.d

~*glass_owl*~ · Nov 27, 2020 at 02:00 PM

I will, you too!

splitimage · Nov 30, 2020 at 07:17 AM

I've noticed this past weekend, an increase in the number of TV ads for alcohol, and I know it will only get worse as Christmas approaches.

Even though I'm totally committed to staying sober, I find these ads triggering because they romanticize alcohol, even though I know it's poison for me.

Any one else find alcohol ads gives them cravings?

splitimage

~*glass_owl*~ · Dec 01, 2020 at 12:24 AM

I avoid tv completely, but I imagine I'd find that triggering. I find get togethers with family triggering, they are all offering each other drinks and drinking in front of me. They drink moderately, but it sometimes drives me nuts. I've learned to live with it and accept I can't drink with them. It's alright if my dad and my brother have a beer, I don't need to have one, I don't even like the beer they are drinking, I just want to feel included. I find other situations where I am faced with confronting alcohol, like going to a bar with family or fortunately sober friends, triggering too. Anything that brings it back into consciousness can be difficult, but you have to keep your resolve, stay serene and let it go. Your disease is always going to be doing pushups in the parking lot, but you can still use wisdom to outsmart it.

splitimage · Dec 03, 2020 at 07:51 AM

Starting in a couple of weeks, I'm going to be hosting a live chat on co-occurring substance abuse and mental health issues, on another platform. I'm really excited about it.

~*glass_owl*~ · Dec 04, 2020 at 06:09 PM

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Originally Posted by splitimage

Starting in a couple of weeks, I'm going to be hosting a live chat on co-occurring substance abuse and mental health issues, on another platform. I'm really excited about it.

I've been looking for something like that, let me know where it is please and I'll tell people I know about it.

splitimage · Dec 05, 2020 at 06:49 AM

pm'd you.

Desoxyn · Dec 07, 2020 at 12:51 AM

I'm craving cocaine so badly

splitimage · Dec 07, 2020 at 09:35 AM

Hang in Desoxyn, You can get through the cravings.

Change in schedule has me hosting my first concurrent disorder meeting tonight, so I have to prep for it. I'm very nervous.

Will go to a double recovery meeting this afternoon to get some ideas.

Desoxyn · Dec 07, 2020 at 01:38 PM

Went to bed: Craving
Woke up: No craving (Because of DMT-like dreams..)

splitimage · Dec 07, 2020 at 05:15 PM

Way to go on not giving into the cravings and not using.

~*glass_owl*~ · Dec 08, 2020 at 01:50 AM

Congrats Desoxyn!

splitimage · Dec 08, 2020 at 06:18 AM

Chaired my first concurrent disorders meeting last night, and it went pretty well. Fortunately another guy who I attend a lot of meetings with who also hosts a meeting volunteered to be a co-host and he really helped me with moving people into the room while I was doing the readings.

splitimage

Desoxyn · Dec 14, 2020 at 04:01 PM

My meds are: Invega Trinza, Dexedrine, atenolol, zopiclone, olanzepine, clonazepam PRN.
Supplements are: Vitamin D, C, fish oil and melatonin
Nootropics are: Ashwagandha, CBD, nicotine, coffee, phenibut, weed

So far so good. Getting back on track. I drank one drink last night and it made me dysphoric. I haven't drank in almost a full year. I don't like alcohol.

Desoxyn · Dec 23, 2020 at 10:16 PM

I'm dependent on phenibut again.

I want to be sober - But I don't know how to deal with the immense pain. I've been doing this for years.

Desoxyn · Jan 01, 2021 at 03:51 AM

Drugs are a slow suicide for me. I should be dead. I don't know how I'm still alive. I don't want to be alive.

Desoxyn · Jan 01, 2021 at 04:21 PM

Feeling better today after sleep

Desoxyn · Jan 01, 2021 at 06:52 PM

I've already got the addiction in control which was a result of self medicating. I will likely stop that now that my meds are adjusted properly and will possibly grow out of using drugs or at least start exploring very cautiously idk.

Nitrous · Jan 01, 2021 at 07:32 PM

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I've already got the addiction in control which was a result of self medicating. I will likely stop that now that my meds are adjusted properly and will possibly grow out of using drugs or at least start exploring very cautiously idk.

Glad to hear that you're meds are adjusted. Hope you're doing well.

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~glass_owl~ Member Member Since Dec 2013 Location: USA Posts: 182 10 147 hugs given	Nov 26, 2020 at 10:12 PM #201 Sober for another night. Spent productive, not harmful time on the computer. managed to eat, see family and friends and get goals done. I even cleaned my dishes, look at me! __________________ Sobriety date 4/19/14 schizoaffective, PTSD and others.
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splitimage Moderator Community Support Team Member Since Mar 2006 Location: Ontario, Canada Posts: 11,529 18 79 hugs given	Nov 27, 2020 at 06:19 AM #202 That's great. Keep it up.d __________________ "I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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splitimage Moderator Community Support Team Member Since Mar 2006 Location: Ontario, Canada Posts: 11,529 18 79 hugs given	Dec 05, 2020 at 06:49 AM #208 pm'd you. __________________ "I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,030 (SuperPoster!) 8 4,931 hugs given	Dec 07, 2020 at 12:51 AM #209 I'm craving cocaine so badly
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,030 (SuperPoster!) 8 4,931 hugs given	Dec 07, 2020 at 01:38 PM #211 Went to bed: Craving Woke up: No craving (Because of DMT-like dreams..)
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splitimage Moderator Community Support Team Member Since Mar 2006 Location: Ontario, Canada Posts: 11,529 18 79 hugs given	Dec 07, 2020 at 05:15 PM #212 Way to go on not giving into the cravings and not using. __________________ "I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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~glass_owl~ Member Member Since Dec 2013 Location: USA Posts: 182 10 147 hugs given	Dec 08, 2020 at 01:50 AM #213 Congrats Desoxyn! __________________ Sobriety date 4/19/14 schizoaffective, PTSD and others.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,030 (SuperPoster!) 8 4,931 hugs given	Dec 23, 2020 at 10:16 PM #216 I'm dependent on phenibut again. I want to be sober - But I don't know how to deal with the immense pain. I've been doing this for years.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,030 (SuperPoster!) 8 4,931 hugs given	Jan 01, 2021 at 03:51 AM #217 Drugs are a slow suicide for me. I should be dead. I don't know how I'm still alive. I don't want to be alive.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,030 (SuperPoster!) 8 4,931 hugs given	Jan 01, 2021 at 04:21 PM #218 Feeling better today after sleep
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,030 (SuperPoster!) 8 4,931 hugs given	Jan 01, 2021 at 06:52 PM #219 I've already got the addiction in control which was a result of self medicating. I will likely stop that now that my meds are adjusted properly and will possibly grow out of using drugs or at least start exploring very cautiously idk.
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