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Metaphysic
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#1
The ritalin craving went away
I feel like smoking weed but I won't I took phenibut though to make me more social for a family gathering tonight |
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#2
My cousin is coming to visit! Last time I saw him was when we were kids. He finished a psychology degree recently after being sober for 5+ whole years!
Before that, he smoked spice/k2 and ended up in the psych ward for a year with psychosis.. I could learn from him =] We might talk about things and I'll share it with you guys next week ^-; |
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#3
He ended up going somewhere else instead of visiting.
Anyways, the drugs don't work.. And I think the only way to stop being dependent on drug use is to DO THINGS, WHILE feeling immense psychological pain/stress - Without any drug. It is the only way for me. RN I'm learning about the middle east.. So learning is a good drug.. It's what I want to do but I always feel like I need something to relax or focus enough... |
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#4
Every September I want to go on a drinking binge. I've just noticed the pattern when I was tempted to stop at the liquor store and I realized it's been a year since I last had that urge. It's purely self destructive, I get absolutely nothing positive out of drinking and 10/10 times I end up cutting and crying. But for some reason that sounds tempting? I'm not going to. I'm on valium and loads of other meds and I'm pretty sure I'd die.
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#5
I'm throwing my weed away and never going to smoke it again. I'm too stoned. I don't feel anything. How could someone like this? Maybe for anxiety or pain.
I smoke it and then all of my mental pain goes away.. But I like the pain.. cuz I know that it will get me somewhere.. - But I'm too stoned to do anything (Yet I WANT to do things) and without it, I'm sober enough to do things (But DON'T WANT to do things). It makes me not care about anything.. It's nice to feel like that sometimes I guess - So idk. Not all of the time though - And I can't seem to control it? Or can I? idk. |
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#6
Paranoia comes creeping back into my brain. Alcohol used to ease that mess. I'm sober for years. I am so afraid alcohol caused me brain damage. But my memory is intact, which is a good sign. But I'm worried about my thinking processes, etc.
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#7
Much happier now. I only use phenibut, caffeine and nicotine.
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#9
It's been 2 weeks since I smoked weed
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Craving weed..
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#11
Hang in there Desoxyn!
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#12
I'm in a ****ton of pain and of course my first thought was painkillers. Gotta brush up on those pain management skills I guess. Maybe go back to SMARTRecovery.
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#13
Hanging in there but on a thin thread. My willpower is slowly fading and I can feel it. I remain strong and sober but I feel weak. Getting transferred to a new therapist soon so hoping I can open up more about my addiction struggles with her.
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#14
Trying not to smoke weed.
I feel so good right now. Why do I want to ruin it? Why do I want to ruin this?? Why? |
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One day and three hours since I quit cigarettes. Today has had its moments. Tore through the car looking for cigarettes, finding myself bored and wishing I had smokes...I was paying $360 a month on cigarettes so as someone looking to live on my own thats a crap load of money I'll be saving...but I've been smoking for over ten years and the longest I've quit is five months...sigh...
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#17
Drugs can be funny but also can lead to death at any moment. Just like life.
But I'm 25 now... I think my time for drugs are dwindling. But I live in my own way, controlled, careful and better decision making. Harm reduction, etc. That's the way it is going - The only that it CAN go, with the rolling tides and waves of energy, washing the cosmos of inevitable pain, death, suffering in a cycle of the divine love to heal the current damage of the world. |
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#18
It's hard to not drink a cider because it ruins my mental health. I don't know why I still want to.
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#19
Hang in there Dexsoxyn, you know drinking affects you negatively.
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#20
10 months clean & sober today and I feel like using. I've been depressed pretty much since they put me on haldol almost 3 months ago and I'm dealing with some hellish side effects I have a feeling some oxy might help with but I'm on valium and last time I mixed opioids and benzos I almost died so and I'm not willing to stop the valium just to get high. Well, I am, but again I won't.
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