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Aug 14, 2020 at 03:52 PM
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Finished off my stash of oxy this morning. Like I said, that means I'm stopping. I already feel like ****. I'm isolating so I don't freak out at people. I know I could get a rx for suboxone or something or other, but I'd rather not. Kinda trying to keep this as much as a secret as I can. Letting the group I go to know and that's all I think I'll need.
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Aug 14, 2020 at 08:58 PM
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Aug 15, 2020 at 05:59 AM
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Honestly thought I wouldn't have withdrawals because my usage wasn't "that bad." Boy, was I wrong. Had about two hours of sleep last night and woke up in Hell. First f'king thing I thought about was oxy and almost started crying when I realized I was out and done. I know it's for the better, and I know I shouldn't do this, but I'm seriously thinking of asking my very few friends if they know anyone selling. Not going to. I would hope they are good enough friends to not tell me anyways. But damn this sucks.
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Hang in there. I've heard opiate withdrawal is awful, but you'll get through it, and come out on the other side stronger. Will be sending good thoughts into the universe for you. splitimage __________________  "I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba 
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Aug 19, 2020 at 10:03 PM
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250mg phenibut still. Not benzo dependent anymore.
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Aug 26, 2020 at 06:11 PM
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Don't know where else to post. Having the most intense cravings today. My boyfriend had a brush with my drug of choice today and its like its so close.
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Sep 03, 2020 at 10:05 PM
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Tomorrow will be day 5 sober - Without phenibut and Xanax too. The olanzepine and taking my meds as prescribed is really helping.
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That's great Desoxyn. Glad taking your meds as prescribed is helping.
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Aug 26, 2020 at 10:38 PM
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Aug 27, 2020 at 09:55 PM
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In 2020, I began year 4 of zero alcohol. I was a serious alcoholic. I gotta do something quick tho, cuz I've been missing alcohol, purely for comfort. I'm so lonely living in this state. Alcohol always comforted my loneliness. Strange right? Cuz I preferred drinking completely alone. Nothing makes sense..
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Aug 28, 2020 at 02:26 AM
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Not sure what meetings are like in your location, but there's always AA. Even if you don't completely buy the steps it's great for meeting other people who are working on sobriety and for fellowship.
If AA's not your thing, check out SMART recovery. They're totally different and based on cognitive behavioural therapy principles. I have a lot of friends who attend SMART recovery meetings and really them. And sorry - don't know your gender but if you're female, Women for Sobriety is a great program. Personally I've always felt better in my recovery when I'm in a community of like minded individuals. spitimage __________________ "I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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Aug 28, 2020 at 04:22 PM
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150mg of phenibut a day.
Taking a 0.5mg alprazolam to relax every evening though. |
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Aug 31, 2020 at 04:43 PM
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Today is day 1 sober - Just meds.
I've decided to just take meds as prescribed. I just had a urine test.. I hope nothing bad shows up in it. I'm in the hospital for dp/dr panic attacks and psychosis. |
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Aug 31, 2020 at 09:08 PM
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Strong cravings continue. A major trigger has come back into my life. I've been feeling dark, and i want to use
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Sep 01, 2020 at 01:18 PM
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