Daily Check In #4

Desoxyn · Aug 28, 2020 at 04:22 PM

150mg of phenibut a day.

Taking a 0.5mg alprazolam to relax every evening though.

Desoxyn · Aug 31, 2020 at 04:43 PM

Today is day 1 sober - Just meds.

I've decided to just take meds as prescribed. I just had a urine test.. I hope nothing bad shows up in it.

I'm in the hospital for dp/dr panic attacks and psychosis.

Nitrous · Aug 31, 2020 at 09:08 PM

Strong cravings continue. A major trigger has come back into my life. I've been feeling dark, and i want to use

Desoxyn · Sep 01, 2020 at 01:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Nitrous

Strong cravings continue. A major trigger has come back into my life. I've been feeling dark, and i want to use

Don't use.. You are loved.. If you do, make sure you don't OD from lower tolerance...

It will be ok the longer you don't use <3

Nitrous · Sep 01, 2020 at 07:06 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

Don't use.. You are loved.. If you do, make sure you don't OD from lower tolerance...

It will be ok the longer you don't use <3

Thanks, I needed to hear that. I won't use, I've been using my coping skills. It helps to talk about the dark thoughts, you know?

Desoxyn · Sep 01, 2020 at 10:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Nitrous

Thanks, I needed to hear that. I won't use, I've been using my coping skills. It helps to talk about the dark thoughts, you know?

It does help to open up - That's why they want to use MDMA-talk psychotherapy for trauma - Not because of the MDMA itself, but because it allows people to open up to their therapists.

Many addicts have trauma and that's why we use.

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This addiction music video gives me the chills and makes me tear up every time I watch it...

If you need anyone to talk to I'm always here =]

Nitrous · Sep 02, 2020 at 08:51 AM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

It does help to open up - That's why they want to use MDMA-talk psychotherapy for trauma - Not because of the MDMA itself, but because it allows people to open up to their therapists.

Many addicts have trauma and that's why we use.

SIAMES "The Wolf" [Official Animated Music Video] - YouTube

This addiction music video gives me the chills and makes me tear up every time I watch it...

If you need anyone to talk to I'm always here =]

Thats really interesting, I haven't heard about that. I talk to my therapist tomorrow, it will be very good for me.

bpcyclist · Sep 03, 2020 at 11:23 AM

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Honestly thought I wouldn't have withdrawals because my usage wasn't "that bad." Boy, was I wrong. Had about two hours of sleep last night and woke up in Hell. First f'king thing I thought about was oxy and almost started crying when I realized I was out and done. I know it's for the better, and I know I shouldn't do this, but I'm seriously thinking of asking my very few friends if they know anyone selling. Not going to. I would hope they are good enough friends to not tell me anyways. But damn this sucks.

Get some suboxone if you cannot do it.

bpcyclist · Sep 03, 2020 at 11:24 AM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

250mg phenibut still. Not benzo dependent anymore.

I'm horribly addicted to nicotine gum though

One thing at a time.

bpcyclist · Sep 03, 2020 at 11:25 AM

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Originally Posted by Nitrous

Don't know where else to post. Having the most intense cravings today. My boyfriend had a brush with my drug of choice today and its like its so close.

Craving what, Nitroid?

Nitrous · Sep 03, 2020 at 12:05 PM

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Craving what, Nitroid?

Opiates. My drug of choice

Desoxyn · Sep 03, 2020 at 10:05 PM

Tomorrow will be day 5 sober - Without phenibut and Xanax too. The olanzepine and taking my meds as prescribed is really helping.

splitimage · Sep 04, 2020 at 04:20 AM

That's great Desoxyn. Glad taking your meds as prescribed is helping.

Nitrous · Sep 04, 2020 at 01:46 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

Tomorrow will be day 5 sober - Without phenibut and Xanax too. The olanzepine and taking my meds as prescribed is really helping.

Awesome!!

Nitrous · Sep 08, 2020 at 07:05 PM

Cravings have ... changed. I'm not just craving opiates, I want anything that will alter my brain. I've been settling.

Desoxyn · Sep 12, 2020 at 09:34 PM

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Originally Posted by Nitrous

Cravings have ... changed. I'm not just craving opiates, I want anything that will alter my brain. I've been settling.

The way I cope with this is to chew nicotine gum or take a supplement or CBD or something. I often want to just "take something".

It's not the best thing for me to do but it's like an addiction hack. Mind you I took meth, coke, heroin, etc.. all of those things..

Even better would be distracting yourself with anything until the cravings go away. Intense cravings don't last very long. Most of the time when I give in and buy some drug online, I cancel the order within a day.

Nitrous · Sep 12, 2020 at 09:38 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

The way I cope with this is to chew nicotine gum or take a supplement or CBD or something. I often want to just "take something".

It's not the best thing for me to do but it's like an addiction hack. Mind you I took meth, coke, heroin, etc.. all of those things..

Even better would be distracting yourself with anything until the cravings go away. Intense cravings don't last very long. Most of the time when I give in and buy some drug online, I cancel the order within a day.

I feel that way a lot of times. Often my worst cravings are for heroin, but most of the time I'll take anything.

I've been using nicotine gum some too, and I still smoke weed. I need to take a break from everything for a while though.

splitimage · Sep 17, 2020 at 08:12 AM

Today is 23 months sober. That's the longest I've ever gone by quite a few months. Now I'm really motivated to hit the 2 year mark next month.

Nitrous · Sep 17, 2020 at 09:08 AM

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Originally Posted by splitimage

Today is 23 months sober. That's the longest I've ever gone by quite a few months. Now I'm really motivated to hit the 2 year mark next month.

Thats awesome!!

MuddyBoots · Sep 17, 2020 at 12:02 PM

Just finished a two week outpatient program for dual diagnosis. I stayed sober while staying with a friend who is closer to the location. First day home and I am...struggling... I'm thinking about moving, but that's not going to help today.

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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,988 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Aug 28, 2020 at 04:22 PM #141 150mg of phenibut a day. Taking a 0.5mg alprazolam to relax every evening though.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,988 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Aug 31, 2020 at 04:43 PM #142 Today is day 1 sober - Just meds. I've decided to just take meds as prescribed. I just had a urine test.. I hope nothing bad shows up in it. I'm in the hospital for dp/dr panic attacks and psychosis.
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Nitrous Member Member Since Nov 2008 Posts: 62 15	Aug 31, 2020 at 09:08 PM #143 Strong cravings continue. A major trigger has come back into my life. I've been feeling dark, and i want to use
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,988 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Sep 03, 2020 at 10:05 PM #152 Tomorrow will be day 5 sober - Without phenibut and Xanax too. The olanzepine and taking my meds as prescribed is really helping.
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splitimage Moderator Community Support Team Member Since Mar 2006 Location: Ontario, Canada Posts: 11,283 18 75 hugs given	Sep 04, 2020 at 04:20 AM #153 That's great Desoxyn. Glad taking your meds as prescribed is helping. __________________ "I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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Nitrous Member Member Since Nov 2008 Posts: 62 15	Sep 08, 2020 at 07:05 PM #155 Cravings have ... changed. I'm not just craving opiates, I want anything that will alter my brain. I've been settling.
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MuddyBoots Monster on the Hill Member Since Sep 2020 Location: by the river Posts: 4,163 (SuperPoster!) 3 4,851 hugs given	Sep 17, 2020 at 12:02 PM #160 Just finished a two week outpatient program for dual diagnosis. I stayed sober while staying with a friend who is closer to the location. First day home and I am...struggling... I'm thinking about moving, but that's not going to help today.
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