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Mar 07, 2008, 02:42 PM
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So I had an interview yesterday which was in a Starbucks. I wasn't familiar with the area of town so I left myself lots of time to get there, and wound up getting there an hour early. It was in a mall area with lots of big box stores. So I'm in my car trying to do deep breathing exercises to calm myself for the interview, and what is directly in front of me. One of the new giant format LCBO's (Liquor Control Board of Ontario) which is the only place you can buy booze up here.
I don't want to drink, I'm taking my antabuse, and I feel so much better being sober, and still the thought that immediately pops into my head "Oh while I'm waiting, I could just slip in and pick up some scotch". Obviously I didn't, but it really surprised me how strong the trigger was from just seeing the store. Guess it's a reminder of how careful I still have to be. --splitimage
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Mar 07, 2008, 03:05 PM
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splitimage said: Guess it's a reminder of how careful I still have to be. </div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> How did the interview go? Well split,,,I have been away from a drink for 18 years and I still have the little SOB standing on my shoulder whispering in my ear from time to time that it was all a very bad dream and that I'm fine,,all will be well,,you ain't no alcoholic,,,just have a sip... I swat at him like he's a persistent fly... Remember...cuninng, baffling and powerfull...and patient as the Devil himslef... Hope you did well on the interview and good for you getting through the day... Lenny
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Mar 07, 2008, 03:27 PM
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OH YES!
I know that feeling! KUDOS TO YOU! You beat the urge! Keep on truckin'! Can you tell I'm from the South? LOL And I DO HOPE your interview went well. Keep us posted!!!!!
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Mar 08, 2008, 05:04 AM
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Yep, I have to keep a close eye for triggers. Really, I don't get triggered very often, but when I do, it is really strong. I am on antabuse too--I think that helps because I know I can't drink--well, without getting very sick.
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