Welcome to our Substance/Alcohol Abuse Support Group

Hi everyone. I just joined today. I have a whole host of issues. I have been on disability for my mental issues since 2005. I also have knee and spinal injuries which leave me in constant intense pain and require pain management. I am also a recovering addict. My drug of choice was heroin. The last time I used heroin was 11/21/2005. Thats not to say heroin was the only drug I used, basically I used whatever I could get my hands on. I did thirty day inpatient rehabs seven times and would always go right back to using. Finally I went to a long term treatment facility and stayed six months and have not used since. Another thing that has been a huge deterrent is now I am a mother. I no longer have cravings and rarely ever have using dreams anymore. I feel strong in my recovery. I also have not been back to my old stomping grounds since I left. She to my current physical health situation I need help taking care of my kids especially since I need to have multiple major surgeries. Due to this situation I am moving back and living with my parents so they chm help care for me and my kids. I feel very confident in my recovery but I don't want to be overconfident so I am here. I thought it would be beneficial to talk with other addicts who understand where I'm coming from.

Hi everyone ~ This is the first time I've posted here,although I've belonged to PC for some time.

I'm a recovering alcoholic with 19 years clean/sober. I was also addicted to Xanax that the doctor prescribed (which I was drinking, although she didn't know I was drinking). After I'd hit my bottom with alcohol, I'd also hit my bottom with Xanax, and I got clean from that too -- I cold-turkeyed that, even tho i didn't know I wasn't supposed to.

I also suffer from depression, and have spinal problems for which I take pain medication (strictly controlled by my doctor). I guess why I'm here is to perhaps try to help other struggling alcoholics/addicts. I've been there and done that and have the T-shirt. So if I can be of help to anyone, feel free to mesage me. I'm more than willing to help anyone!

God bless and please take care. And remember - one day at a time!

Hugs, Lee

Hi there - I too have been clean & sober for over 12 years. Last yr or 2 I have struggled unknowingly with PTSD and found I couldn't talk about it in my meetings or with peeps who didn't get it. I backed of meetings for a couple of yrs - few here/there. But am trying to go more reg now. Just so hard to go out of the house & be with people..

Hi all,

A kind poster in the ACOA forum suggested I come over here. I am struggling with alcohol. I don't know if I'm an alcoholic. If you ask my doctor and my mother, they will tell you I am. If you ask my partner and my friends, they will tell you I am not. I do know if my drinking continues to ramp up, I will definitely be one.

I've just read a few responses, and finding them eye-opening. I appreciate your sharing. I'm particularly interested in hearing any practical advice about cravings and such. For me, the cravings begin around 3 p.m., and last through dinner. If I can get through dinner without having a drink, I am fine. But if I have a drink, the night is done.

BTW, I don't intend to leave my partner, but I have had to distance myself from my friends. A simple trip to deliver something to her on Sunday turned into a drunkfest.

Thanks again to you all.

thanks Doc John. I waS wondering why I couldn't find alc abuse info on PC. Could use help. Thanks again.

I am a recovering drunk! I've been sober for 8 months and I can finally see a better future for myself. Sometimes, I think about having a drink, but I think of that hang over I had to deal with the last time I was drunk. I'm happy that I've found this web site because I stop going to AA and now y'all can be my support

i suffered from an addition to drinking for over 20 years. i have been sober now for over 5 years thanks to a judge that mandated rehab. after two years of failing at outpatient i was sent to an in house program for 30 days. there it finally dawned on me that i actually could stop drinking. its still not easy... i dont crave the drink but i find myself angry that getting sober did not fix my problems. and on top of that there are scores of past friends that do not believe i have quit. dual diagnosis is a tough row to hoe........

I would like to ask if any of you had this problem. My nephew was in rehab for a number of months, he went from there to live with my sister back to rehab, homeless shelter for one day and then my sister brought him to live with my mom. I live a little away from them. To make a l ong story short - he is starting to take my mom's sleeping pills. I counted them and there were 13 and now there are 6 left. Ok from Saturday to today-she should have 10 left but only 6 are in the bottle. Also, he took my car out and I confronted him and he said no. Hm....there was mud in the car and I don't have any mud around my place or my mom's. He had access to my keys since I left them there. My mom doesn't want to do anything because he will be leaving in two half weeks. I say we need to confront. She said no because everybody already accuses him especially his parents. His other brother has no communication with him. Long story there. Please give me some advice. I want to make sure my mom doesn't stress to much because she has a heart condition.

Thank you!♥

[QUOTE=mdb81;216840]hello! new member here.
i am currently having issues with alcohol/addiction.
today is the first day in a long time that i won't be having a drink.. well heres hoping anyw

Me too, the first day I hopefully wont drink.....mabey we could join up and encourage each other as we try and nail this.
roxyanne1

Addicted for 20 years. Been going to N/A everyday....pick up 60 days key tag tomorrow excited

im suffering from using marajuana but im trying to cut down my usage so my meds will work better but it helps me to cope when im stressed and anxious

hi new member here . I have bipolar and when I go into an elation where the body goes hyper and binge drink . when im depressed automatically have no cravings for alcohol or anything else this happens every other 3 weeks its a rapid cycle .
thanks for listening

Hi there. I'm a long term member of PC but not in the addictions community ~ tho don't know why as I'm a supa~abuser of codeine in it's many shapes and forms. Please could someone tell me how I actually ''join'' this forum? Could you leave a message on my visitor page please.

Im 64 days clean from pain killers and over the counter meds i just started when my bestfriend went to rehab and she looks so happy i wany that too it just seems to be getting harder though ....what are those tags your talking about?

My name is Bipolarpeanut. I had several incidents happen over the past couple months.I have been bipolar 1 for 27years ago diagnoses. I grew up in a violent alcholic home mom and dad would drink to a rage and got physically terriorist on themselves. I was the oldest so I had to hold hands on my 2 younger sisters ears. I swore I would be the family member that would break the cycle. I was always on serious psyc meds back then so drinking was crazy in itself. I could not find my glass to mouth. Thorazine and haldol did that then. I am now 42 and up to recent had never had a drink. I was having low-t issues so I started the shots about 8 months. One night I had my first glass of wine, then another and so on til all Of a sudden I turned into the most evil monster ever. I beat up several people while growling and cussing, sppiting and kicking. This last time I kicked a cop in the chest. He tazered me 3 times as I laughed at him. Lucky I went to hospital not jail. I was told the steroids, meds, and alchohol caused the meltdown. PLEASE IF ANYONE IS DRINKING ON STEROIDS STOP. you could hurt someone or yourself and never know it. NO MORE FOR ME!

HI! I am really looking for a group for the partners of alcoholics and porno addicts. Can you direct me?

Right on...I am proud of you. Just keep in mind that remaining abstinent/sober is a lifelong struggle, or at least, it is for me. I am a recovering alcoholic and have been sober for eight years. In the beginning, I was in total denial and destroyed my life. I too, refuse to go back to that type of lifestyle however, I don't pretend that I am not vulnerable to external & internal stressors which my trigger a lapse or relapse issue. I pray that you continue your sobriety, learn new coping skills, and build strong support systems. You will be in my thoughts & prayers.

Hi, I've been a PC member for 2 years. I have BP, BPD, MDD,GAD,BDD. I have never posted on this forum because I have been keeping a dirty little secret. I have had addiction issues all of my life. I've come off nearly everything at some stage. I will quit something but I usually have a substitute ready to take it's place. Currently I'm using all of these, am physically addicted to some and psychologically addicted to others - prescription pills: as well as my psych meds I take high dose morphine, Tramadol, codeine, Lyrica, Brufen - for pain; valium, xanax, Aladorm - for sleeping. Plus I currently have a psychological addiction to meth. I'm using it more than once a week. I'm even using it to help me get through my boring, long, lonely nightshifts at work + I'm using it on days off sometimes just for recreation. I also smoke cigarettes. Occasional social drinker, but could easily relapse back into alcoholism. I am able to hold down a job, seem normal and am able to hide it well; so I get away with my addiction and I belive it's getting worse. I'm using it for motivation to do household chores etc. I can quit a substance easily, but I can never quit "addiction". I have never had treatment for my addiction issues. I don't know where to start. I'm scared about going to a professional for help because I don't want it documented in case It affects my job. I haven't told my GP about the meth because he will be angry at me for possibly worsening my Bipolar. Because I haven't hit rock bottom and able to afford and sustain my use, I don't see me quitting soon, but I'm disgusted and ashamed that a substance has control over me. I 'm pretty sensible with my prescription meds because I don't like leaving myself short, so I don't usually take too many. My problem is mixing lots of different pills and creating a perfect combo for mind-numbing, relaxation and sleeping. Not sure of the consequences of mixing so many different meds + the use of meth with it.

I am confessing this to you to try and make it real and to admit that I have a problem. I ustify my meth use to myself because I can afford it, I don't commit any crimes to support my habit, My current addiction is far less worse than it has been in the past, at least I'm not whacking it up anymore (I cut it and snort it), + probably a few more stupid reasons i make it ok with myself.
Any thoughts or feedback?

I know how it feels Mel. I have been there before. I am 6 years sober and thought that it was impossible for me to clean up. Thought that I was a lost cause but was I ever wrong. Message me back if you want to chat.

Hello. New to this forum and worried. I've been heavily depressed the past year to the point of barely caring for myself (diagnosed as bp 2 a few years back). I am always so tired that I have difficulty doing things. A few months ago I was prescribed clonopin and about once a week on my days off I take extra just so I can sleep and avoid my depression and guilt. Because I'm so tired I'm always looking for ways to find energy. 3 weeks ago a friend got me to do cocaine which I have never done before. I'm planning on hanging out with same person tomorrow and will most likely do some more coke. I'm a little worried that I'm going down the wrong path, but am so tired of all the depression and the exhaustion of life.

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Thank you! This is my first time here. Please, can someone direct me?

I haven't been on this site for awhile and have yet to share my history with mental illness and substance abuse. I am not big on telling people what to do, but since you're not ready to tell your doctor yet, would you consider going to a 12 Step meeting? You wouldn't have to share or identify if you went to an open meeting and you might hear some things to which you might relate.

Good luck to you!

I am clean for a minute.

/thank you!

Hello there Choocha. Oh wow, I've now met someone who does the same as I do, simply changing one (or 3) addictions for another(s). Like you I can eventually ''give up'' my addictions but within days I'm into another. The meds provided by my Psych Dr I don't abuse, except I save up the sleeping meds for a ''rainy day''. I'm now on another de~tox/re~hab programme to stop the strong painkillers (codeine) which I bought over the counter. It's available OTC in the UK. I take a lot of OTC meds which in certain combinations are potent. I research my subject well. I am NOT making light of this as I've been forced over the last 33 years to self medicate due to BPD, severe eating disorders, body dysmorphia, alcoholicism etc. This time I really WANT to give up as these illict drugs/drinks are expensive and now I don't have a job. I hide all my addictions, living with my elderly Dad I don't have anyone to answer to anyways. Yeah, glad to read your story and I wish you all the best. BPD is VERY difficult to live with isn't it? XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX