[Greg77733]

Hi, my name is greg. I have been dianosed with clincal depression and bpd. I am a long time drug user. For the past three or four days I have been super depressed. Yesterday and today I have been craving real bad. I have been clean two yrs., except for a couple of pot times. I want to speedball so bad I can taste it. ( herion and cocacaine) mixed. I hope I can make it thru because if I dso it once there is no turning back. Pray for me please, Thanks, Greg

[Rhombus]

I'll definitely pray for you ((((( Greg )))))

((greg)) hope u make it thru..

[cantstopcrying]

Greg, you are so in my prayers! Stay strong, get involved here, post post post as much as you need to--visit the game section, sit on the curb or in the lagoon. Let us know how you are doing. Two years, Greg! That's a wonderful thing you've done. Stay strong and don't give in!! You can do it.

Originally Posted by cantstopcrying

Greg, you are so in my prayers! Stay strong, get involved here, post post post as much as you need to--visit the game section, sit on the curb or in the lagoon. Let us know how you are doing. Two years, Greg! That's a wonderful thing you've done. Stay strong and don't give in!! You can do it.

post in games....

hope ur staying strong!!!

[splitimage]

((((Greg))))

Well done on the two years. Stay strong, you know you can make it. Cravings are horrible, so try to distract yourself. Do whatever it takes to keep yourself busy until the urge passes.

Do you have anyone IRL who you can call to talk to, or call a distress line just to talk about the cravings? I did that a few times when I first stopped drinking and was having really bad cravings, and it helped to just hear myself say to another person that I wanted to drink but that I wasn't going to.

Hang in there.

---splitimage

[makouro]

I am new here and it is strange I came across your thread before any other, as I am also in recovery as an ex speedball user.

I will pray for you Greg, as I know exactly what you are feeling right now.
I see this thread was posted yesterday and I hope you are doing well.
if you need someone to talk to, do not hesitate to message me, I am here.
one thing that has always helped me was knowing there was someone there
and who understands the nature of my specific drug of choice.

my best advice for the moment is this, remember your drug using days.
remember the lows and only the lows, but know that you are better than that now.. and don't tell yourself otherwise.
keep in mind that any time you go back, its worse than before.
and will only make your recovery and personal issues that much more difficult.

[Slippers]

What are you doing to stay clean? Going to meetings? Seeing a counselor? Have a sponsor?

I will definately pray for you, and hope you are working really hard to stay clean too.

Slippers

[notz]

Hey man, ya gotta go to meetings. Gotta hear from those who got it like you do! Your worst day clean still beats your best day using.

Two years is a nice piece 'o change. Play it through in your head - will it be better, will it be worth it? Don't go there dude, you owe it to yourself to respect what you've accomplished.

Good words on the prayer list for ya. See ya soon.

[hurtingintn]

(((Greg))) stay strong..you CAN do this

[mad_dragon2789]

Originally Posted by Greg77733

Hi, my name is greg. I have been dianosed with clincal depression and bpd. I am a long time drug user. For the past three or four days I have been super depressed. Yesterday and today I have been craving real bad. I have been clean two yrs., except for a couple of pot times. I want to speedball so bad I can taste it. ( herion and cocacaine) mixed. I hope I can make it thru because if I dso it once there is no turning back. Pray for me please, Thanks, Greg

be strong greg, distract yourself with other things, go on a run, or walk, exercise is refreshing and healthy, and will help take your mind off of your cravings, and clear your mind and help you be a bit more happier. i strongly reccomend it.

[Greg77733]

Thanks you'll I made it through.

[cantstopcrying]