am i depressed because of her??

my mom is a totally achohol junkie. i was tired of her being in my face all the time. recently i checked myself into a teenage mental ward, and they diagnosed me with maniac depression and bipolar disorder. they said i was under alot of stress. my mom hates me. [well i feel that way???] i'm in the process of being emanicpated. but i have freak maniac anger bursts, they're completely random. am i like this because of my mom?? i need advice!!

Hello, smileyy.angerr. What does your therapist say?

Not sure what you mean: "like this"

Emancipation sounds like a lovely thing!

I think you are doing something for yourself albeit fairly on the intense end of help, however I don't know the circumstances of your situation. Perhaps you might consider Alateen (I'm gathering you are a teen) to see if that can be of some help when you are ready. Do they have an Alateen programe there?

I just think that anger and rage can be a defence to the trauma one experiences living with the disease of alchoholism. But, that said, there is absolutely no point in blaming the alcoholic. Blaming the disease, yes and the reasons behind it, yes.

I asked about depression here at one time and learned that it often is a cover for 'trauma'. I found that to be true in my experience.

Take good care of yourself you are tremendously worth it!!!!!

If you are under alot fo stress, that is going to help reduce symptoms, when you are able to reduce the stress. This is something you should address in therapy. They know more details adn will be better able to guide you.
Finding a safe outlet for the anger would help too...pillow punching, etc.
My mom always made me be the maid, from the time I was six, I was her housekeeper, babysitter and all around fetcher. I hated doing the dishes...I always had to do them. My therapist had me go to garage sales and buy cheap dishes and put them in a box and beat them with a baseball bat...to vent my anger.
I have a flash-fire type rage when I see someone being mean to another person, esp a child.
I hope you find peace and good luck with the emancipation. We are here for you, if you need someone to listen...

Adult children of alcoholics are prone to mood swings from having to wait for the other foot to drop sort of feeling through our childhoods, yes your childhood proberbly contributed toward how you feel, but genetics do too and if your mother was having difficulty controlling her emotions hence her alcoholism then theres that side of it too. Read up all you can on ACOA and that can help one understand a whole lot better.

When I was still living with my mother as a teenager I was getting really snappy all the time, I was so miserable and could get angry at the drop of a hat. When I was 15 (?) I ended up beating the crap out of one of my younger cousins because he was throwing rocks at me. I was also more willing to fight people if they brought it on, I did have some incidences where I launched the verbal attack on people and slapped a girl who was years younger than me. I wasn't a cow or the kid of person who went out causing trouble or tried to fight people, I just got mad easily and vented it badly sometimes. What else could I do? I also you to have complete flip outs where I'd start screaming at the top of my lungs and crying like a lunatic and ripping my hair out in handfuls. That was when I hadn't seen my mother for months while I lived with my aunty because she was living in a car with an abusive twat. My aunty started thinking I was faking it for attention, when I was actually having total breakdowns. I had another one recently and decided to recluse myself for months instead, I never thought it would last this long, 5 months now.
So no, it's not unusual for you to be acting the way you do, you can't be expected to take these things easily. I think in years time you will start understand how you were feeling at this time, it can be hard to fully see everything when you are in the middle of it.

i don't have a therapist, i had one as a child, and now im completely terrified of them [stupid?? i know]