[somescarsneverheal]

I have strugled with being Anorexic for 4 years, and latley all i hear from the guys i am with is that i would be prettier if i wasnt fat, how i need to be skinny..i keep tellingmyself that i need to be happy with who i am but i find myself writeing down everything i eat, and excersiseing all night to lose what i gained, i dont even eat that much just one meal a day and its not even a full meal its like a couple of bites, but latly i have stoped eating again. Ussually my sister would make sure i would eat but we are about to both go to seprete colleges, idk how im gonna not fall back into the eating disorder, i dont want to but i just feel like im not good enough, and i keep getting told that im not either, I dont want to fall back into an eating disorder please help me please? What can i do to not fall backwards?