[lost_ina_world]

i have been battling anorexia for 7 months now. i have lost weight and keep loosing weight. 2 months sgo i told my brothers and sisters i have anorexia. i kept this a secret from them for so because i thought they would be ashamed of me and turn away from me and not support me. but they didnt well they gave me encourgaging words at the time but they act like they forgot i have it. that doesnt help tho cuz then they arnt encourgaging me. my mom sends me to a counciler who is also a specialist with eating disorders so that helps...i guess. my mom think it does but i dont think it makes a difference. i hate having to talk about it because it reminds me i could die and that im not normal and that im keeping a secret. i hate having to fill out calorie counts or what ever. so i just dont. my mom told my grandma i have anorexia and she has a big mouth and talks about it!!! my dad doesnt live with me cuz my mom and dad have been devorced sense i was 1 year old. so i am close to janitors that are men at my school and my mom knows one of them and has for a long time so she dont have a problem with that ia sked her y i talk to old guys and she said cuz iv never had a father figure and i got to thinking about that. i really miss my dad. and my brothers have done drugs and got high but are sober now. but at that time i was diagnosed so i didnt have anybody to talk to. well its around 1:42 AM right now so ima go to bed.

[AngelWolf3]

I am so sorry that they act like they have forgotten about it. Maybe it scares them too, so they are avoiding it? (although that still doesn't justify it) And I totally hear you about not wanting to talk about it too.

Although, I will say that I am glad that you know that it is not normal and that you could die, because that means there is a part of you in there that cares about you!!!!!!! I wish you so much luck with your T/counselor, and I am glad they found someone for you that specializes in eating disorders.

My parents never got divorced, but dad was ALwayS traveling, so he was never around. So I somewhat know how you feel about that. I tend to date way older guys--guess I'm still looking for the father figure.

Please keep us posted. We are here for you.