[Sunnytonight]

I've restricted, binged, and attempted to purge in the past year and a half.
I went to a GP with my mother. It boiled down to a discussion about health and just the food groups, my mother worrying about me not having enough carbs.

The reason for the visit was to discuss my eating habits. I didn't open up, though I nearly did, because I still want to lose a few pounds. Whilst the doctor was talking about facts I already knew, I was already thinking how I can deceive the scale for my next visit's weigh-in (I knew I'll lose weight).

Ha. I'm really changing how I think about food, but I slip and get annoyed. I don't think my mother will recognize what I'm going through now. She never mentioned my self-harm to the GP. She called it "moody." How could she?

I stopped tracking calories.

What should I do? I feel trapped.

[Redsoft]

I'm not sure if you were going with your mom because you are a minor or just for support (both are great!), but:

If you're a minor, depending on your age in your state (or country if that isn't applicable), you may be able to speak with your doctor privately, and legally, if you tell them you don't want your parents knowing, they cannot tell them barring extreme circumstances. If at a certain point you feel you are ready to share your struggles with your mom, having the doc explain to her privately rather than you alone might be a more attractive option, since the doctor can provide facts and some practical perspectives and advice.

In this case, or if you are just going with your mother for moral support, perhaps if you tell your GP that you are struggling with an eating disorder, they can prescribe some advice and defer your mother's worries or, possibly, nosiness if that's a problem.

Also, it is important to be straight forward with your doctor, as you are paying for their help and if they don't have the facts and true figures, they can't provide accurate help or advice, so in the most petty sense you're not getting your money's worth either.

[Victoria'smom]

Next appointment ask the GP for a referral to pdoc and therapist.