[maddnessreturns]

I can't decide if I'm in denial or if it is just my depression acting up. I have struggled with anorexia before and it nearly killed me. It was a wake up call and I've done well for about two years now. However my depression has acted up and been switching medications around. I'm even off work for four weeks because of it. For about two months my eating has slowly dwindled down again. I won't put specifics but I can tell something is wrong. I've lost all the weight I had put on. And I just can't eat a full meal. But part of me just wants to say oh no big deal it's just depression..

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[Travelinglady]

Hi! It is hard to know if it is caused by depression or maybe the eating disorder returning. Either way, I think it merits a talk with your doctor, since you do have a history of an eating disorder. Please don't panic. Okay?

[eskielover]

The thing for me is that prozac actually triggered my anorexia into the lowest weight I had ever been at the age of 43 & I landed in a treatment center & constantly in & out of the hospital for several years medically.

Fast forward to 2004 (not quite 10 years later)....I ended up going through a trauma that really messed me up with the home care person when my mother was dying of cancer.....again....anorexia hit.

The thing is....it doesn't matter what the trigger is....if it ends up in the ED behavior.....then it is what it is....it doesn't have to be body image issues that take us there.....that is a fallacy that all too many believe.

Anything can trigger the behavior & it needs to be handled professionally if you can't deal with it yourself which is not easy because accountability is always important in dealing with anorexia or any ED.

[maddnessreturns]

Thank you. That really helps me put it in perspective. I'll have to bring it up in my next therapy session before it gets out if hand.

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[eskielover]

Let us know how things go

[maddnessreturns]

Update: I have a therapist now I saw for the first time today. He wants me to start going to the eating disorder clinic they have. It would be an outpatient basis with a nutritionist, medication management, group therapy, and individual therapy. I'm a little nervous about it because I can go easily while I'm not working but when I start working again I'm afraid I won't be able to get off work and it'll be for nothing. I would need off an entire Tuesday afternoon for it. I just feel so odd going because at my worst no one would see me a few years ago. Now I don't feel like it is that bad and they want me to go to an eating disorder clinic. It is beyond me.