[hamster-bamster]

When an opportunity presented itself, I started reading my lover's email. I still do, although it is pretty boring and mostly consists of messages to and from me. He is still legally married to his wife but living separately, and I read the history of their rocky relationship as it was written in their exchanges. My consciousness does not stop me, although technically speaking I know perfectly well that it is a wrong thing to do... but this realization does not deter me and I am totally cold about it, so to speak.

I have gone through a complete neuropsychological eval that yielded many dx's including "AS traits" but not a full-blown disorder. I know well that I do not have a full-blown disorder: for instance, I like and care for animals, and cruelty to animals is a common trait in a full-blown disorder. But my current behavior, which violates my lover/old friend's privacy and goes against ethics of any conceivable culture, seems to be AS.

And I am fine with it. I will just take care not to get caught.

I do hope that eventually I will stop out of sheer boredom, but I am not inclined to exercise will power and log off from his email client.

Can anyone relate?

I hope I will get responses...

[GottaWantIt]

I would have done the same. I really don't know if you should feel guilty, I really wouldn't. Getting caught would be embarrassing, maybe that will deter you from doing it. I'm missing a key on my fone, between O and Q, rhymes with T so excuse the "stelling". I'm not full blown antisocial either, scored an 85 on a ersonality test during a sych evaluation. I guess I can relate to you in that sense.

[hamster-bamster]

Every time I check, it is just new mail from me. It WILL get boring!