ASPD? Sociopath?

Thank you for continuing to respond it's helping gain insight.. my father actually has NPD and has been pretty abusive until last year when he moved to another country. No I am not functioning very well, I am questioning absoloitely everything about myself and having intrusive thoughts all day long it's making me really depressed. I have a boyfriend of 3 years and I'm always doing scenarios with him where he has to act out that he has a gf etc and I have to seduce him lol because I always crave excitement and attention from men so the scenario helps me stay interested... my need for attention is pretty bad to be honest I have done some extreme things to get noticed by men and am pretty sexual. I don't like it and wish I could just go out to lunch with friends without being obsessed with who's around paying attention to me. Wow that's pretty intense you could do that in 6 months and yes I'm pretty dam good at manipulating but maybe because I'm an only child and I'm just used to getting my own way I'm also quite gullible. I will take your advice and stop posting on the aspd forums I guess since you don't think I have it. I appreciate you helping me out and not trying to manipulate me since I'm in a dark spot.

I also quit my job (I'm a teacher) because I was to scared I was going to hurt the children so now I've been sitting at home 24/7 researching all day and taking online quizzes and contemplating my life haha. But yes attention does really affect me I can't walk past a "bad boy" without acting in a manner that will get me some attention, it's quite sad. It could have manifested from the fact that dad would only pay me attention (if he wasn't criticising me) if I acted out. Who knows