Tonight

I can't sleep. My dad sat me down tonight and said we needed to talk.

I immediately started chewing my nails without even meaning to do it. Apparently, he needed to know when I can start getting Direct Deposit Advance through the bank again.

To turn the phones back on is two hundred. To pay the rent is eight hundred. The internet is behind almost two hundred. He says the gas bill will wait a week.

My child support hasn't started coming in yet. It's been months.

I won't get paid for another week. My last check is earmarked for all of this. He says to let the Internet bill slide for another cycle, which means they're just going to snowball us under further.

Where are me and my baby going to live? How am I going to get to work?

I was supposed to go out with a new acquaintance of mine (female friend) tonight, but she couldn't make it. Plans got canceled, just like the ones I made for my little sister's birthday (our ride screwed us over, and we didn't have gas money).

I'm stuck in the house like I've been for the last twenty-five years (except for work), and I hate it.

I try talking to people online, making friends, but the females get catty and the guys just want to cyber or make totally inappropriate advances.

I should just go to bed, but I know I wouldn't sleep.

sorry you are having such a hard time...

I wish you the best of luck in getting back on your feet again. I know you will find a lot of support here. keep checking in and posting here. No catty women here and no inappropriate postings from anyone.

Keep treading the water as best you can. Please feel free to share here. I don't know you very well yet. Are you seeing someone about all of this being so hard to bear? Are you in treatment? If not I hope you would consider it. Please try to get some rest and check back in if you need to.

I agree that this forum is pretty good at making sure the members are looked after.. I belong to another forum and it has been over run by kids cussing all the time and makeing fun of those seeking help.. Fell free to talk here.. I've only been here a short time and feel quite comfortable here..

Do you live with your dad? I save alot on groceries by shopping at lower end stores and stocking up on sale items. Can you call a lawyer to find what's taking so long with the child support payments? So sorry you're struggling.