[Butterfly_Faerie]

I'm having alot of anxiety off and on. My bf is going to a fly in fishing trip in Northern Quebec and where he will be there are no phonelines, I've never gone so long without talking to him, well 3 days, sad isn't it, selfish?

I was in rough shape last night, I was upset, crying alot, banged my head a few times off of the wall...Sad that my bf wouldn't understand the anxiety, worry and stress I was dealing with in terms of his trip.

The fact that it's a seaplane, not just that but I always want to make sure they land saftely etc, from friday until sometime monday I wont hear from him...

Alot of anxiety last night.. alot this morning when I woke up knowing i'd be going to my parents house and I wont see him until sometime next Tues-wed something like that.

God I hope I don't panic, I almost lost it last night... scared myself.

i know that it is hard to be away from someone you love. three days isn't very long, though. i understand the feeling of anxiety and such, try to take your mind off of it by doing something with your parents, while you're there..........xoxox pat

[Butterfly_Faerie]

It's not so much him being away really, it's me not being able to get a hold of him if I need to, with my anxiety I always can phone him, but it's kinda impossible to do when he's on an Island with no electricity. The anxiety is starting again...