[Mrhomercat]

Hi friends. Hope all is well. Yesterday my anxiety was completely out of control I could not function, that's why I'm writing this today. I have calmed a bit, but am still falling into the abyss. I am completely surrounded by darkness and despair. As I sit here at McDonald's, the people around me are irrelevant, their voices blending together, creating a white noise effect. I have no concern for their business, no empathy for their plights. I have selfishly wrapped myself in my invisible cocoon, blocking out all the world and treating it as if I am the only person that matters. I can't help it, It's the one defensive behavior that works. I am an island full of weeping and sorrow. I must endure. How long this time? Can I? Must I?

[Rohag]

Hi, Mrhomercat!

Sometimes you have to dive under the oncoming wave so it won't knock you over. If "cocooning" or "hibernating" help you weather this storm, great -- that's survival, not selfishness.

The Mrhomercat I know is a warm, caring individual despite overwhelming circumstances. Your feelings of selfishness have a life of their own; nothing I can say will disperse them. Now is a time for self-care. I attach no shame to your seeing to your own needs and safety.

[lynn P.]

((mrhomercat)) - sorry you're sick and I agree with Rohag - it's okay to tend to yourself because you're sick. You have so much to worry about yet you still want to care for others but you can't at this moment. Are you accessing all of the social services available to you? I pray things will improve for you Mr Cat.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

((((mrhomercat))))

Hello my friend, allow yourself to care for yourself. Do they care about you? are they thinking about you and what your plights are? Maybe not...maybe one or two of them are. But I think that if they had your concerns then they would be shielding themselves too....don't be harsh on yourself, we're all allowed to give ourselves a cuddle or a safe place to be, even if that place is within ourself

((((thinking of you))))

Rhiannon