[Aunt Donna]

Right now my panic disorder, ADD, and ocd are getting the best of me on top of physical problems (high blood pressure, headaches, carpal tunnel syndrome). I feel like running away where there is no communication with the outside world. A place where there is no triggers and all that matters is me getting better.

It seems to me that everyone around me is more concerned what I need or can do for them. I am talking about family.

Tonight I had a friend offer to drive me home with another friend driving my van. (The headaches leave my head sore and I get dizzy sometimes when driving and have anxiety about driving at night anyway.) I was touched and I really needed that. She knows about my difficulties and she wanted to help. She has enough difficulties herself, but she let me know she was here for me and I know she means it.

I know I am sounding selfish but I just want the panic attacks, the anxiety, the ocd, etc. to stop.

Hello, Donna. It would seem your treatment is not working. I suggest you print your post and give a copy to those who are treating you. There is no need to suffer in silence if help is available.

Good luck.

[Gus1234U]

i agree with theByz,, early treatment is the most effective , for headaches as well as panic. you can learn to manage your body's responses to triggers, and even detox the patterns that allow for triggers,, do keep working, and Best Wishes , Gus

[trusanity27]

Originally Posted by faylowell

Right now my panic disorder, ADD, and ocd are getting the best of me on top of physical problems (high blood pressure, headaches, carpal tunnel syndrome). I feel like running away where there is no communication with the outside world. A place where there is no triggers and all that matters is me getting better.

It seems to me that everyone around me is more concerned what I need or can do for them. I am talking about family.

Tonight I had a friend offer to drive me home with another friend driving my van. (The headaches leave my head sore and I get dizzy sometimes when driving and have anxiety about driving at night anyway.) I was touched and I really needed that. She knows about my difficulties and she wanted to help. She has enough difficulties herself, but she let me know she was here for me and I know she means it.

I know I am sounding selfish but I just want the panic attacks, the anxiety, the ocd, etc. to stop.

Your not being selfish, you are being honest. Me too. I feel you because I get to where I just want the fast heartbeat before I go to sleep sometimes or before tyring to go to sleep would go away and the worries and the constant listening to my breathing daily to make sure Im not having shortness of breath which Im scared because I know that I might have a panic attack. Its like one is not happening but Im scared sometimes that It will so I pay attention as If I can stop it before it happens.

Want it to stop! Im being honest about that. It is the way I feel. It is the way you feel and this you cant stop on your own. I have been struggling with GAD since a child and depression for a short period of time to the point of almost breaking down. I had to release it to God because I know that it would kill me. What ever is bothering you, please tell me because I want to help. You know I have been asking God to send me a friend that is like me concerning the mental disorder so that we can hang out and get through this, I know he'll send me one. Im here to make friends to help all I can. What ever you are going through, Im telling you, dont give up because you can get through it. You know I think sometimes that I could be a whole lot worse. I mean think about it, think of those who never grow up to see 27 yrs old and those who are born to die and what I mean is those who are born with diseases to only live to fight that and their soul at the same time. Its hard to watch a friend go through it like I had and she lost her life. I was there at her funeral reciting a poem that I wrote in front of family and friends is when I realized that she was really gone. It seemed like a dream. You will get through this. I cant tell you how to defeat it because Im learning how but tell me about your self.

I see that you live im virginia and that you have a family....tell me more.

[Aunt Donna]

Originally Posted by TheByzantine

Hello, Donna. It would seem your treatment is not working. I suggest you print your post and give a copy to those who are treating you. There is no need to suffer in silence if help is available.

Good luck.

Thanks for the reply. I am seeing the doctor once a month for adjustments to my medications. I am, also, getting counseling more. Things really get to me when I am alone. Then there is dealing with my family. My doctor has spoke to them about the best way to help me, but when at home, they go into childish mode. (I am talking about my husband and mother, plus the rest of the family who doesn't live with us, but calls about the smallest problems).

[Aunt Donna]

I see that you live im virginia and that you have a family....tell me more.[/quote]

I live in Louisiana but thanks for your reply and understanding where I am coming from.

[sundog]

I'm really sorry you're suffering so badly. I have a bunch of anxiety disorders and I really know how soul-destroying they can be. Plus it sounds like you have a ton of relationship and other stressors in your life. I don't think you sound selfish at all. Just overwhelmed. I really hope things get easier for you