[puddles120710]

Hi, I just joined the group. I am so lost and confused right now that I do not know where to go or what to do with my life. I am so overwhelmed that my panic attacks have started again. It is so bad that just the process of registering was too much and made me cry again for the millionth time today.

My life started falling apart in July 2008 when my dad had his first heart surgery. When I came back from that experience 3 weeks later, I was told that the business I had worked for for the last 8 years was closing. The following July I was diagnosed with a rare lung disease myself. That was ok for me to handle, but what has really sent my life into a tail spin is the last year. During that time I have lost 4 jobs due to the economy, my house, car, 2 dogs, had to sell everything but my clothes, my friend, all of my retirement money, and now am about to loose my apartment. I can not handle anything more. I literally have no money to my name or no way of getting any.

All of my former coping skills are nonfunctional. I don't have money for my medications or insurance and do not qualify for medicare or medicade. I feel so much stress that I have a constant headache, pounding in my ears, numbness in my extremities, chest pains, and cry almost all day. I do not know where to go or what to do anymore nor do I know how to get out of this situation. I am so scared.

How do I deal with this and still maintain my sanity because I feel like I am loosing my way in this world. Does anyone have any sound advise? I am at a total loss here. PLEASE HELP!

[sundog]

Oh, I'm so sorry to read this! Gosh, what you're having to deal with just isn't fair. I'm very sorry ((((((((Puddles))))))). I haven't been living in the States all that long, and I'm still somewhat unfamiliar with all the different insurance options, but I'm thinking there has to be some way for you to be able to get some professional help. I do hope someone else reading your post will be able to chime in with some practical advice. I know there are many people here in very difficult financial situations who do still manage to get medication. This is definitely too much for you to have to deal with on your own.

Keep talking to us here (((((((Puddles))))))) and I really hope so much that you get a break very soon