[MrsBro13]

Well, the day started out good. Went to the OB, she listened, she sympathized, and gave me a script for Vistaril.

After we got home, things started going down hill. I had lunch, and right after I got those spasms in my chest that to me feel like your heart is skipping a beat. I can't decide if this is my tested, perfectly healthy heart, or spasms in my esophagus due to acid reflux that I didn't feel before I was on meds for it.

Also, I've been shaky all day long, just feeling crawly and jumpy.

I took a nap, which was good, but when I woke up I have this lump in my throat that has been hurting off and on, and I just keep thinking about what could be wrong with me medically. It's one of those days that I don't want to accept anxiety as the reason, I'm certain something is wrong, or I'm dying.

I couldn't fill that script today so I'm just trying to survive until tomorrow. I want to cry, but my husband is so stressed over the past couple days I'm scared to go to him.

[thea_kronborg]

The part about your husband really resonates with me. I'm scared to ask any more of my husband either.

No advice, just sympathy, wanted you to know that I hear you.

thea

[Cyran0]

MrsBro13, I know every single one of those physical symptoms intimately. The spasms, the shakiness, the restless jumpiness, the lump in my throat. I know it's anxiety causing these things as I've had multiple pdocs tell me those are incredibly common complaints from anxiety sufferers and yet, even with that knowledge, I stress and worry over what could be physically wrong with me. Cancer is my big fear and the ***** about cancer is that it's impossible for me to prove that I don't have it. Fear, desperation, despair, it all hits me in a hot wave of panic and I'm certain I'm going to die.

But here's the kicker, this has gone on a long time and I'm still not dead. It is, in all probability, just anxiety. Unfortunately knowing that is just not enough some days.

I hope you feel better.

Cyran0

[sundog]

I can really relate to all those physical symptoms also (((((MrsBro))))) Not to mention the endless uncertainty about whether it's really anxiety, or whether it's a terminal illness. Ugh. I really feel for you I'm hoping tomorrow comes soon for you and you can get your script filled. Wishing you peace

[Ambrosa]

Sorry to hear ur day went down hill MrsBro13. I to can relate to all that. I have for the last 6 months had pains in my left breast and shoulder blade sometimes the pain can be so bad that i convince myself that i am having a heart attack. i finally went to a physio the other week and My shoulder joint has been inflamed for some time now, and has been the cause to all the problems. He even rub the inside of my breast out as i had a massive not there. I am still seeing the physio as it will take a few more visits. But i still sit there and when I get the pains and think HEART ATTACK! I am trying to tell myself that it is only this, caused by that. But when u r in that state of mind trying to tell yourself that is completely different. I can calm people when there having panic attacks saying this is only happening because of this and that but to try and tell yourself is sooooo god dam hard. I hope u have a better day tomorrow

[Cyran0]

MrsBro13, how you holding up?