[ButterfliPrincess11]

Hey psych central fam, How is everyone today?

I know i haven't post in awhile but i need some adivce. I just don't know what to do anymore. My soul is tired. I return to work today. People have been looking at me funny. I don't know if it is because i took off for my bestie's birthday or that my hair is done in kinky twist (which means its braided). They look at me as if i committed it a sin or something. I don't know why i care but it really affect me deep down in my soul. I just don't feel appreciate, yall. I just feel invisable until i do something negative or not getting my paperwork done on time. They are talking around me as if i am not even in the room with them. I just dont understand. I feel sooo lost. On top of that, i am trying not to worry about paying bills, but i can not help it. It my fault, i got to fix it some kind of way. I just been going thru so much internally, it is ridculous. i just want to pull out my hair! My stomach turns becuase i have this unease and anxious feeling. Don't no one care. So the blank should i? I also believe that i hurt my parnets feelings because i took a trip to celebrate my friend's birthday and didn't come back til after father's day. I am sooo stuipd. i am soo upset with myself, i just don't know. My soul is tired of this fight. Is there a reason to keep on going? When you still disappoint so many people because u are trying to grow as an individual or stand own ur own. Will things get better? or keep going down and down into the bottomless pit of sorrow and depression and anxiety?
God bless

[bllauben]

Originally Posted by ButterfliPrincess11

Hey psych central fam, How is everyone today?

I know i haven't post in awhile but i need some adivce. I just don't know what to do anymore. My soul is tired. I return to work today. People have been looking at me funny. I don't know if it is because i took off for my bestie's birthday or that my hair is done in kinky twist (which means its braided). They look at me as if i committed it a sin or something. I don't know why i care but it really affect me deep down in my soul. I just don't feel appreciate, yall. I just feel invisable until i do something negative or not getting my paperwork done on time. They are talking around me as if i am not even in the room with them. I just dont understand. I feel sooo lost. On top of that, i am trying not to worry about paying bills, but i can not help it. It my fault, i got to fix it some kind of way. I just been going thru so much internally, it is ridculous. i just want to pull out my hair! My stomach turns becuase i have this unease and anxious feeling. Don't no one care. So the blank should i? I also believe that i hurt my parnets feelings because i took a trip to celebrate my friend's birthday and didn't come back til after father's day. I am sooo stuipd. i am soo upset with myself, i just don't know. My soul is tired of this fight. Is there a reason to keep on going? When you still disappoint so many people because u are trying to grow as an individual or stand own ur own. Will things get better? or keep going down and down into the bottomless pit of sorrow and depression and anxiety?
God bless

((Hugs))

Sometimes I feel the same way you do. Sometimes I just want go back to bed and hide under the covers.

I really don't know what to tell you other than I understand exactly how you feel. It's not pleasant and it's not easy.

Sometimes it seems like you can try your hardest and still not get things right and people judge you for that. You get anxious because you don't know how to make things right because no one is telling you. We're not mind readers. We're just sensitive people trying to do the right thing. If we're not doing it right, do us a favor and let us know!

Again, hugs to you. I hope things get easier for you.

--Beth

[missbelle]

You are trying to figure out other people. Good luck with that......You will never really know what someone thinks feels, or acts a certain way. They may not even know themselves.....Your parents...ask them if they were upset that you did not come back till after Fathers Day. Don't read into it..simply ask them. They will tell you the truth and then you can talk to them

Your perception is that people are looking at you funny...Ah, could this be just you thinking this? I bet it is....anxiety can cause all kinda weird stuff in our brains like being paranoid...remember you ae just one person......these people you work with may be thinking about something entirely different..like their own messed up lives....

I bet the hair looks great, and if by chance someone is looking at you maybe, just maybe they like your hair......do not read into something.....

My soul once was really tired too.. I was tired to the bone and deeper and tired of trying but I did, and yes its worth it because you never know what is around the bend!!! I always liked the phrase.."Don't give up before the miracle happens" It kept me going.....yes, life is worth it.....there is beauty...look at the universe, the stars the ocean...you are looking at problems and people and traffic and bosses and all that and stupid t.v. shows and dumb movies but life and beauty are not there....

You just need to look for the sense of things in a different place... Hope you find the serenity you need to keep going!!!!

Thinking of you;
Hugs and hugs;
Dee