[gma45]

Hope I am putting this in the right spot. Lately I have been having anxiety attacks I did make a appointment to see the Dr. later this month. The internet and this web site and na and aa meetings are all I have right now, So with the risk of sounding stupid I will be asking some questions. I know that sounds bad, insecure, I am working on that! One question I have is...I have a job interview today which I am nervous about but that is not the problem the problem is I am so worried about having an anxiety attack that I am working myself up to have one Yeek! How do you turn off the negative thoughts? next question.....Why do I stress so much about posting something here? Wow just writing that has brought tears to my eyes. Ok I am alright now. Sometimes I don't like feelings! next question....How do you live with feelings? Thanks for letting me vent, It does make me feel better just writing!

[racee]

about the postings. come to find out i am not the only one! i will write and then reread it and delete it. i have done this so many times. i think i sound stupid and people are going to make fun of what i just said. and then i get paranoid on who is going to read it.
i have realized not everyone is going to like what i say and they don't have to they don't have to read my post. allhtough it hass made it easier that i have a couple really close friends her on p.c. who i feel won't judge me and it gives me strength. i still get nervous especially wheni start a thread and only one person and posted and over 40 have viewed it. i try not to take it personally but i still cry about it at times, makes me feel dumb. like i shouldn't post but i keep on keepin on.

[gma45]

Originally Posted by racee

about the postings. come to find out i am not the only one! i will write and then reread it and delete it. i have done this so many times. i think i sound stupid and people are going to make fun of what i just said. and then i get paranoid on who is going to read it.
i have realized not everyone is going to like what i say and they don't have to they don't have to read my post. allhtough it hass made it easier that i have a couple really close friends her on p.c. who i feel won't judge me and it gives me strength. i still get nervous especially wheni start a thread and only one person and posted and over 40 have viewed it. i try not to take it personally but i still cry about it at times, makes me feel dumb. like i shouldn't post but i keep on keepin on.

Thanks for replying. I hate feeling this way but somehow it makes me feel better to know that I am not the only one writing then deleting! So I don't have a special disease only I have! For so long I thought it was just me! Sorry you got it too but thank you!