[Justme_55]

My Counsler referred me to a psych who I will see friday. She believes I suffer from acute anxiety, depression, PTSD, but can't diagnose me. She said these are the least of you're issues (meaning..?) So I realized I was freaking out about my potential of meds. Is that a normal reaction? I want to curl up and hide.

[Silent_tsol]

Normal you say? I don't think I can speak for normal lol. But I did have a similar reaction. I've always had negative feelings towards medications and didn't want to see a dr either. It's hard to explain everything to someone who isn't there to listen to you (like a counsellor is) and the whole thing seemed ridiculous and impossible

My counsellor at the time new the dr she referred me to and I signed off on them passing notes. But I also said "c suggest I......" And followed up with a very determined "I WILL NOT take a med every day". So we compromised on the lowest possible dose of lorezepam that I could take "if I absolutely positively needed it -even though I probably, more than likely, never would" (or so I believed). The dr I saw was pretty good at adjusting to me, even letting me know that if I was still having trouble sleeping I could take 2 of the lorezepam to help...even though I never would.

So I took that presc, and I was ok with it. I told him what I would not be ok with and I feel like we compromised. 5 months went by and I rarely ever took the lorezepam. I would get worked up thinking "is this panicking enough? Do I NEED to take it? What if I wait? Ok I'll just wait? Ok but what if? What if I take it and get addicted? What if I'm allergic? What if?". So I finally went back to the dr. I said that, when I managed to convince myself to take it, the lorezepam really helped. But I couldn't get myself to take it when I needed to. He asked if I'd be willing to try something as an every day routine at this point. I agreed

I think the key is that I was never handed a prescription and thrown out the door. It always felt like I had a choice and I could ask questions

There is a lot of stigma around taking psych meds and there's also dangers with them. I think it's hard for most people to start taking them. But they can give you chance to allow counselling to work. For me I had a hard time working on anything because of my anxiety, but with the meds I feel like I can get further.

I also don't think the dr will automatically throw meds at you. Be sure speak up and share your anxiety about the situation. And if they start on a path that makes you uncomfortable, let them know

[pbutton]

Originally Posted by Silent_tsol

5 months went by and I rarely ever took the lorezepam. I would get worked up thinking "is this panicking enough? Do I NEED to take it? What if I wait? Ok I'll just wait? Ok but what if? What if I take it and get addicted? What if I'm allergic? What if?".

Woah! This is SO me. I've had the same full bottle of Lorazepam since last April. Haven't taken a single one.

Back to the original post: Freaking out at the thought of meds probably isn't a normal reaction but I can certify that definitely you're not the only one.

[Fuzzybear]

[(JD)]

Your "psych" is that a psychologist or psychiatrist or just a counselor? Breathe... you are still who you are, were... but perhaps not who you will become?

[Justme_55]

Psych as in psychiatrist, and therapist. Thanks everyone I'm going in about an hour, if it helps I'm willing I just prefer no medication, want to be able to do it myself but I see how far that got me lol.

[BrokenNBeautiful]

I don't like medication, either.

I admire and commend anyone who can stand up and tell a doctor what they need and don't need.



I was wondering how it went?

Billi

[Justme_55]

It went well thank you he put me on 25 mil of zoloft a day and I've noticed a slight difference I'm not as worried about everything. He also gave me trazadone for PTSD nightmares which intensified them ten fold so I haven't been taking it. I feel better and thank u everyone for the advice and insight.