[KAT41]

i was in the swimming pool at my leisure centre the other day, swimming lengths as usual; the pool was very very busy and all of a sudden, while i was in the deep end [not a good place to panic! or have any sort of anxiety problem!] this irrational thought came over me that i couldnt swim and i started to panic, i couldnt put my face in the water and i really felt like i was swimming my first lengths all over again, what is that all about? i did try and relax but i'm frightened it will happen again
i say irrational because i have been swimming lengths in this pool for the past five years, i can swim, i know that, so why did i start thinking this?

i do take meds for anxiety and i have ocd [checking] but i also have obsessive thoughts, ive been on meds for over 2 yrs and my doc is thinking of adding propanolol as an interim measure as i'm already on cipramil 40mg daily

[Miswimmy1]

sounds like your OCD got going there. I have OCD too as well... I competitvely swim year round, so I can relate to you in the water... that is not a great time to panic... lol. on a serious note, i'm glad you were ok and were able to get out. This does sound irrational. Are you working in therapy? And if so, have you been challenging your OCD in a diferent area lately? I say this because OCD switches on you. You feel like you are getting a handle on things and then it comes up somewhere else. It sounds like this is what you were experiencing. And you are right: it is not logical at all.

I'm sorry you had to go through this. It is never fun, is it If you wanna talk, message me!

[-jimi-]

Maybe anxiety related, maybe just about being human. Even those without an anxiety disorder sometimes have those moments of clarity. Because that is what they really are. We realize for a short while what life really is, where we really are. Usually we are sheltered from such thoughts.