[beatles1234]

I'm just so tired of everything, I feel so on edge and have no one to talk to since everyone in my house has long gone to bed. I just feel so anxious and a little bit afraid to be entirely honest, I already can feel a migraine coming. I feel so stress out and anxious about life right now, I felt fine earlier in the day when it suddenly hit me. I can't stop shaking and feel dangerously close to a break down. I feel like it's a delayed reaction to something that happened earlier. I just wish it would all go away or something. I don't know what to do and it's making me freak out even more.

[SoupDragon]

(((beatles1234) - sorry things are tough for you right now. I wonder if any of the grounding stuff would help at all right now? Listening to near an far sounds that you can hear, looking at objects in your room, their colour, shape, even feel of them.

I know it may sound lame when there is so much in your head, but these things do help me when I am spiralling.

Soup

[beatles1234]

Originally Posted by SoupDragon

(((beatles1234) - sorry things are tough for you right now. I wonder if any of the grounding stuff would help at all right now? Listening to near an far sounds that you can hear, looking at objects in your room, their colour, shape, even feel of them.

I know it may sound lame when there is so much in your head, but these things do help me when I am spiralling.

Soup

Thank you for the suggestion. I tried it but it hasn't really helped. I find when things are spiralling out of control for me that talking to someone helps calm me but as I mentioned before no one in my house is awake and I don't have a lot of friends on here that I can talk to.

[beatles1234]

Just an update, it had calmed down a bit for a little while but now it's back again full force and progressively getting worse.

[SoupDragon]

Good that is calmed for a while - do you know what made the difference then?

[beatles1234]

I concentrated on breathing, just listening to the sound of myself breathing and then I kind of freaked myself out, worrying my breathing wasn't regular. I know it's an irrational thought but I can't get rid of it.

[SoupDragon]

What about if you concentrate on something that isn't "you"? A picture? A tree? Anything else you can see?

It is strange when we know something is irrational but we get caught in it - happened to me at my last T session, it was horrible - walking helped me in the end.

[beatles1234]

Thank you so much, it worked. It took me looking through my binder full of drawings I have done and listening to one of my favourite bands to get there.

I think some of my problems are from the fact that I don't see a therapist, may parents can't afford it and my anxiety/avoidance issues make it hard for me to get a job. My mom also thinks my anxiety problems have calmed down since I was first diagnosed and I haven't told her they've gotten worse because I have the horrible tendency to keep everything to myself and pretend everything's fine.

I also figured out the reason I had my anxiety attack and realized it's something I don't want to talk to my parents about, I haven't even talked about it to me brother or sister. I've only ever told one person and I hardly talk to him anymore.

I kind of wish I knew someone on here to talk to about this but unless someone talks to me first I won't say anything, I fear judgement even though I know this is a safe place to talk about such things.

[LiveThroughThis]

Originally Posted by beatles1234

I feel so stress out and anxious about life right now, I felt fine earlier in the day when it suddenly hit me. I can't stop shaking and feel dangerously close to a break down. I feel like it's a delayed reaction to something that happened earlier..

This has happened to me numerous, numerous times. I'll go do something potentially stressful, be around ppl, etc., and do fine "in the moment"...then several hrs or a day later, boom! Panic Attack. I've long wondered why it's delayed, and asked all my drs, no one can really tell me.

Originally Posted by beatles1234

Thank you for the suggestion. I tried it but it hasn't really helped. I find when things are spiralling out of control for me that talking to someone helps calm me .

Same here as well. Lately when I've been in the throes of a panic attack, and my bf's at work, it's 2am, etc., I'll try to call the Crisis Center, or leave messages on my friend's phone (she turns it off at nite). If later in the day, I call a friend and either talk about what's going on with me, or simply let them do all the talking---sometimes the latter takes me out of the severity of the anxiety. Hope this helps,

[SoupDragon]

Originally Posted by beatles1234

Thank you so much, it worked. It took me looking through my binder full of drawings I have done and listening to one of my favourite bands to get there.

I think some of my problems are from the fact that I don't see a therapist, may parents can't afford it and my anxiety/avoidance issues make it hard for me to get a job. My mom also thinks my anxiety problems have calmed down since I was first diagnosed and I haven't told her they've gotten worse because I have the horrible tendency to keep everything to myself and pretend everything's fine.

I also figured out the reason I had my anxiety attack and realized it's something I don't want to talk to my parents about, I haven't even talked about it to me brother or sister. I've only ever told one person and I hardly talk to him anymore.

I kind of wish I knew someone on here to talk to about this but unless someone talks to me first I won't say anything, I fear judgement even though I know this is a safe place to talk about such things.

Yes sometimes our head tells us one thing, that it is OK, safe etc.. but the feelings don't always give us the same message and it can feel really scary. This is a good place to write things though, I have always found people to be supportive. But if that feels too much for you, but you would still like to share, then feel free to PM me. I am not on here all the time, but will be very happy to read anything you want to share.

I ams so glad things are feeling at least a little better - well done you for riding that wave. Soup

[hamster-bamster]

Wow! Must be so tough! I have had migraines and anxiety attacks, but separately, never at the same time.

[beatles1234]

Originally Posted by hamster-bamster

Wow! Must be so tough! I have had migraines and anxiety attacks, but separately, never at the same time.

It's such a pain sometimes but I deal, sometimes that how I can tell if an anxiety attack is going to happen.