[NishQuiche92]

So I lost my job a few days ago...and I didn't feel like telling my family because I felt they would judge harshly, because that is just how they are...needless to say, my mom came to me acting all concerned so I did tell her I was laid off....but I also expressed to her I would appreciate if she didn't bring all the rest of the family into it and let me handle things. Well she got very *****y about it....and now my whole family is mad.
I have bad anxiety and depression....and for the past few weeks I have been stuck in a slump that I can't seem to pull out of...there are times where I can't even get out of bed in the morning because life feels like too much struggle...and now I have lost my job and it weighs heavily on me...
I feel I am on the verge of another breakdown, because now my family has turned from me too, and I am not sure what to do. My own mom doesn't believe it is anxiety I feel, she thinks it is my excuse to be lazy and act childish....but I was diagnoses almost 2 years ago...and it is frustrating for her to see me in that light. Please, what do I do??? I am scared.

i can't really give advice, but know your message has been read.

hugs- hope you get the right support

[greenkittens]

I think you need to surround yourself with a new positive family... Personally, I don't hang around people that are not loving and supportive, including some family members. I'm sorry you're in a slump, I can relate. I feel like not getting out of bed, usually on payday and the days following payday... Like now, I'm really happy, but in a few days when I get paid and all my money is gone to bills I will be extremely depressed and want to give up. But then after there is nothing left to lose and it couldn't possibly get any worse, I feel better. Which actually typing that out looks ridiculous.
Good luck!!

[NishQuiche92]

thank you for responding. it is difficult, and greenkittens i do understand what you are saying.

[BLUEDOVE]

Hi N.Q. I don't think the problem here is you,or
your lost job--I think the problem is your judgmental family,and the reluctance to get out of bed,is the reluctance to face their condemnation.I gotta tell you,that is most definitely NOT motherly love! Try and be kind to
your SELF,even in small ways like admiring some
beauty you see,or admiring some possession,
anything to let you see you are NOT who your
parents say you are.
You will have to FIGHT FOR
YOU,SUPPORT YOU,or is there someone you can
talk to who will keep quiet about it? Try to come
up with some solutions that will at least EASE
THINGS.I send you my COURAGE+CARING.
Deepest Respect,
BLUEDOVE

[NishQuiche92]

Thank you BlueDove I appreciate that...I know its not very motherly, but there isnt much to be done about it. Thanks =]

I think we have the same mother
You are not alone. Please be kind with yourself and give yourself a couple of days to feel the feelings and grieve the loss of your job. And I know easier said than done, but try to separate yourself from unhealthy, toxic people that are not supportive of you. You are going through a very difficult time and it is important to be with people who will lift you up, not make you feel worse

[NishQuiche92]

Rose, thanks, I appreciate the advice...it is difficult to stay away from those in my family who might not be supportive, especially with the holidays right around the corner. But I understand what you are saying and will try to limit my time with them till I am able to feel better and more confident in myself.