Agoraphobia?

I locked my doors, closed all my blinds, and ran away from the window when I saw someone outside. I'm afraid to leave my house and can't even smoke on my porch. My heart pounded when I was in my backyard. Every time my upstairs neighbor moves, I panic. This has never happened to me before. This is scary

I understand the agoraphobia. Have you been diagnosed with it? If not, you may want to call your doctor asap. Before I took meds for my schizophrenia, I had symptoms of agoraphobia. I was scared out of my mind. I even yelled at my neighbor to stop being so nosy. I was turning in to a hermit, and driving people away from me. It's pretty scary not to trust anyone.I hope you find the support you are looking for here at PC.

Sincerely,

Piraeus

I haven't been diagnosed with it. Oh boy ...

That sounds really scary. Are you OK with calling people? Can you talk to a therapist about this?
How does the idea of opening an outside door sound? Not going out, but opening it and stepping back, and doing something else, just for a few minutes.

Is it too scary? Is it something you can try? Maybe just a window?

I've been on the phone all day. I've been able to step outside, but ran back in if I see a neighbor. I'm seeing a T on Thursday.