[not quite right]

I've always wondered how bad it could actually get. I'm finding out right now. After being denied the disability that I needed desperately to survive, I have to move out of my house in 48 hours with no money, no place for my stuff & having to stay with friends until I find a way to get a place. I have 7 year old twins & my marriage of 12 years could possibly be over. I don't know what I'm going to do & I'm terrified. How did I let it get this bad? How can I get back up? What if it somehow gets even worse? Not sure I have enough strength left to rise above this. God, help me. Somewhere where there's still hope to hold on to, somewhere torment cannot go. My worst nightmare coming to life. Wake up, wake up. Save me

[LadyShadow]

Sending you prayers and hugs for you during these hard times.

[not quite right]

I'll take all I can get. Not smart enough to give up, too ignorant to succeed. Not even sure if a better life exists. So devastating it's almost unreal.

[LadyShadow]

Just when we think it can't get any worse, a glimmer of hope happens that helps us move forward. I'm sure something will happen soon to improve your situation even though it may not seem like it now. Again my prayers I am sending you

[optimize990h]

Sending prayers your way. Just letting you know I have read your post.

[Vossie42]

Wow, what terrible times you're going through! Can you appeal the disability claim rejection? I know that takes time and you need help now. Thank goodness your friend will take you in for awhile. It sounds like it's time to see about getting food stamps, low income housing, welfare in general until you get back up on your feet. There are churches that are willing to help with rent money. I'm sure there are social service agencies that can hook you up with services you need. Just a few friendly suggestions for you.

Keep us posted!

[not quite right]

My lawyer has already started my appeal. It was my first time through, so, I figured denial was inevitable. I'm already on food stamps & utilize the various agencies available to me. It's just not enough. I can't work anymore & I feel so helpless as the world falls apart around me. I know that I will land on my feet, I'm just scared it's gonna kill me to endure this cruel situation. I don't have anything left. I'm exhausted & disgusted. But, I truly appreciate the support that I've been receiving. Here's hoping I'm on my way up.

[transientsoul]

Originally Posted by not quite right

My lawyer has already started my appeal. It was my first time through, so, I figured denial was inevitable. I'm already on food stamps & utilize the various agencies available to me. It's just not enough. I can't work anymore & I feel so helpless as the world falls apart around me. I know that I will land on my feet, I'm just scared it's gonna kill me to endure this cruel situation. I don't have anything left. I'm exhausted & disgusted. But, I truly appreciate the support that I've been receiving. Here's hoping I'm on my way up.

First let me say you have my support and sympathy. In 2007 I had an "All Is Lost" moment: I sat 97% of my belongings on the curb and went to a homeless shelter (the first of 3), I had to drop my youngest son off at his friend's house and hope he behaved so they wouldn't kick him out and take myself to the shelter not knowing what lay ahead or how I would ever survive the feeling that everything was broken beyond repair.

But I did. It wasn't easy oh no, but with friends, luck, a little bit of doubtful prayer, and persistence... I did it, and I did it on my own. It's one of the few things I have to list under accomplishments. So just know that I understand where you're at better than a lot of people might.

As bad as it seems, you have to take help as it's offered, believe in yourself even if it's a teaspoon of belief at a time, cry, scream, kick something, and soon, you'll know where you need to go to get where you want to be. When you're there, those teaspoons will turn into tablespoons, then into increasing amounts. You'll have some bad days and some that are more progressive. Practice self-compassion. You're only human, with flaws and failings, but you're human with humor and intelligence and man, that's gonna weigh out over anything else. Trust that, ok?

As for Soc. Security, I have filed my first application in June 2013. I am fully anticipating a denial. I spoke to a SSA rep a few days ago and she clearly said that "Oh most people say that the first time is automatically denied but I can tell you that's not true" - and I thought yeah, well you're getting paid a government wage to say it too... LOL. So appeal and appeal and gather as much evidence as you can. Work with your lawyer. Throw your misery into that effort!

Be well Ms. Not Quite Right, and keep that chin up no matter what.

[not quite right]

I hope that I can succeed & come out the other side as you did. And hearing your story gives me some price of mind. I know I'm not alone, but sometimes it sure gets lonely at the bottom. My town only offers short term shelters for domestic violence victims & in that aspect I'm on my own. In the end things will be how they are & I will live with it. I just pray my children don't suffer for my failures. Stripped bare of pride & humility, I will keep going until I'm no longer able. I'm terrified. And devastated. I'm broken. I take comfort in knowing I have people who understand and care, you all are holding me up when I cannot franc any longer. For this , I thank you

[Mustkeepjob32]

I'm very sorry, know that we are thinking about you. From your post I can tell you already are a strong person and you will come out of this even stronger.
Z

[not quite right]

I went to court & was given some extra time. Still don't have a plan. I am confident that I will land on my feet. Have to keep moving forward, failure is not an option. Thank you all for your support. It is making a world of difference

[not quite right]

My friends I thought an update was on order. I have until monday to leave my house. Due to a judge who was sympathetic and kind. But, with that extra time I was able to pull together some money and have a 99% chance of leaving here and to a new home. I am so grateful for the amazing support the pc community has given me, and I'm finding my strength again to carry on. I should not end up homeless, and a second chance awaits. I found some hope, I believe that I was blessed. I hope all of you get a chance to have some peace & maybe I'll have some too. Love to you all.