[wanttobeme]

34 male, I am not using any medication, I have certain background about anxiety, I am recovering from my single panic attack..

It's been almost three years now, everything slowly getting back to normal..
The feeling ... I feel like I am re-discovering my true personality..

I've been told that the brain chemistry has been altered and/or things has to be "re-wired".. What exactly happened during the course of panic so It left me with years of misery?

I want to have some solid evidence for my questions, so I can make one more step towards normal life..

Although it is much more better than the first days but why I don't have the same resistance to the stressful situations like I used to before? Or why my body giving different responses to these stressful situations? What exactly has been changed???
(Like stress.. Not always like before but time to time when I feel the stress, I can feel my chest)

Why I feel the emotions stronger than before?
(Like anger.. When I feel the rush to my brain for couple seconds, it takes 3 days to get back to normal sleep without night calls)

aaaand OCD.. Why I have to think over over over and over the same.. Much more better than before, I read in books but in your opinion/explication what is relationship between anxiety and OCD ?


I will appreciate If I can get some answers to these questions. Thanks in advance.

[optimize990h]

I have read your post.

The one question I can answer from personal experience is my emotions seem stronger than in the past. For me, it is like a sharp object going into an old wound. Memory sometimes intensifies when the past is recalled for me. I am reliving it, the past, but the emotions take over, I feel weaker, so emotions feel stronger for me. Take what you like, leave the rest behind.

And I reply so you know members are reading your post, may not be able to reply with answers. Oh, by the way I get a bit OCD but I have to redirect my self from that. Take care. sorry it is not definitive.

[wanttobeme]

Hey, thanks for the answers.. I guess is different for everybody, but there is some questions that I "pose" should be the same for everyone..

You know sometimes, I feel to talk, talk and talk over about my past condition.. I cannot let go.. The memories.. There is a debate about it, some say blaming parents are not good, some say the otherwise..

My case, my past started filling with anger.. Especially right after reading John Bradshaw and the "toxic parents"... yeah you see what is coming huh?

I started noticing some weird anxieties.. and I realized my brain always calls in worst possibilities, like when I hear a sound from a room I always thing "automatically" something bad is happening.. Even though I know everything is fine.. I hate this.. and I mean it..

Anyway probably that's why I am most of the time angry, especially yo kids, I feel like very serious, I want to join them and enjoy....but cannot.. I cannot change myself for the time to be a kid.. Any small mistake, I get angry again.. I feel like a mistake...

[Cyran0]

wanttobeme, some of what you describe sounds like a PTSD reaction. You talk a lot about the past and that it's causing huge emotional reactions. Have you asked a therapist about PTSD?