[Melmo]

I'm 25 years old and have had social anxiety all my life, and very low sf esteem. It seems though, since about January of 2011, when my daughter was most a year old that everything started going to ****. I have horrible anxiety at work and I can't hndle stress. I've been diagnosed with depression, I have many symptoms of ocd (especially the intrusive thoughts which are very disturbing) but haven't been diagnosed. I feel like I may have ADHD and bipolar. I do have an eating disorder. I have not been diagnosed or treated for anything except depression and anxiety but I can't get diagnosed with anything else because I can't afford mental help and my family dr doesn't seem to want to diagnose anything. Why does mental illness suddenly show itself after. Stressful incident? I have. Life changing event happen in June 2010 and then January 2011. Is this why I'm so ****ed up? So confused.

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[healingme4me]

Will the treatment you receive, differ, with or without a diagnosis? One thing, I like to look at, within myself, is behavior, less labels, more behavior modifications and changes that I can make to cope with life's stressors.

One year, after having a baby, isn't so far fetched. Your body went through a momentous change. If your doctor just wants to use labels of depression and anxiety, instead of looking for what else there is, why not focus on the symptoms?

There's others that have OCD, that can give ideas and examples of what works for them, to try and manage it, in their life. ADHD? Forgetfulness, and lack of focus, can also stem from exhaustion, and depression and even anxiety. My pdoc's #1 question to me, 'how's your concentration?'
I once asked, my pdoc, in the beginning, 4.5 years ago, 'Do I have bi-polar?' 4.5 years later, I still do not display the symptoms of bi-polar. I was snapping, at people, mainly my then husband, and angry and resentful and tired, and had a complete physical and emotional collapse after my third child, still, bi-polar, I don't have.
Environment, does tend to factor into biology where mental illnesses are concerned.

Are you really, truly ****ed up? Or is there so many changes going on around you? Having children, isn't just changing body chemistry and dealing with exhaustion, but for me, placing how all my relationships surrounding me truly were. My priorities shifted, I grew as a woman, and frankly, realized, that I didn't have as supportive of a network as I once thought that I did. It bred anger and frustration and until I pinpointed how I wasn't asserting my feelings, because I was the type, stuffed them down, everyone else came first but me, I had no 'preference' (food, activities, etc, etc)...whatever everyone else wanted, 'sure, no problem'. I had to make a change.
Yes, having a child, could have brought this out in you, is it illness, as much as reality checking yourself and not liking what's going on around you?
I'm not sure, I just know this resounded with me, in some regards.

[Melmo]

I guess the reason I like having a label is so I can identify with other people with the same issues. Not only that but I uses I feel like if I can say I have ADHD, then there is a reason for my complete lack of focus and forgetfulness, instead if just thinking I'm stupid.
I have a horrible memory. I'm taking a class for life skills for people with depression, anxiety etc and I'm working really hard on mindfulness. I tend to zone out when I work and tune everyone out, so I don't hear people around me or notice what's going on. My manager and coworkers get frustated and I hate when people are mad at me or when there is tension in the work place.
Yes, I do feel ****ed up, like I can't function like everyone else at work, and that I have a ****** memory and I'm constantly apologizing for not doing something because "I forgot".
I cant handle relationships because my self esteem is so bad, that most of the time I just want to be alone and don't want to be around anyone. I have been in N on and off relationship with one man for about the last 2 years and I keep breaking it off and I never understood why I went through periods if wanting to be with him and other times when I didn't, before I realized it was my lack of self esteem. We are currently not together but just started talking again and if history is any indication, we will be back together soon. I just really don't want to **** things up again, I really like him and I know he really likes me, although I really don't understand how. He's been so patient, even a male friend of mine said he would have left me a long time ago, and that I'm gonna drive him crazy. I feel like if I can't stop thinking about him, and we still want to be together after all this time, maybe we are meant for each other? But
I just feel like I'm gonna mess it all up again

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[gayleggg]

Stress can bring on some mental illnesses. I know that when I was first diagnosed a depressed and anxious, I was told it was brought on by stress. I tended to hold in anger and they said that I had interalized the anger and it came out as depression. Unfortuantly, when the stress went away I was still left with anxiety and depression and that was 29 years ago, I was 32. My life hasn't been the same since.

I hope that the doctor can give you something to help you out of this depression. A lot of the other stuff is symptoms of the depression and will get better with the treatment of the depression.

[Melmo]

I'm taking 150mg lamotrigine and 30mg celexa right now. I don't want to keep asking for a higher dose but I feel like its not helping as we'll as I'd hope. I have to admit though I'm a lot better than I was before I was on meds at all. I had a lot of rage, I would throw things, slam doors and cupboards, break things, scream etc.
I haven't felt like that since going on meds but now I just feel so stressed, lonely, unfocused, sad and hopeless.

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