[Otulissa]

Its been a year wondering if anything is real, I feel like ive lost my family and desire to try anything else. I cant stand living this way forever, and its not like I believe the thought, I just fear and doubt enough that its ruining my life and I cant rationalize with it....I don't know what to do anymore....

[Soundoff]

Are you seeing a therapist? As an anxious person myself whose spent about 3 years in a continuous cycle of nothingness because of my fear, I have to say that getting professional help is one of the only options I can think of that can help. Even if you feel that it doesn't help you, you should stick to it because being able to go see your therapist on a regular basis is a start to some kind of normality then staying in your current state of confusion and fear.

[Otulissa]

Im trying to get in to see one. Im just terrified they wont be able to help me, and I just cant live this way forever. I saw a pdoc who said it sounded like ocd with derealization, but whenever I try to find hope this wont be forever I always find stuff that scares me even more.

[Soundoff]

We all have fear whether we have a mental illness or not and its not a bad thing but when you allow that fear to stop you then it becomes a problem. When your fear stops you from getting help it's a really big problem. Fear is just an emotion or an idea, it can not harm you unless you allow it to. Maybe you have OCD, idk but no matter what you have a therapist will be able to help you. You might need medication along with therapy. My therapist one said " if you feel scared or hesitant then talk to yourself, work through the reasons why you feel that way and tell yourself why your wrong to feel that way. Take your time but don't lose to an emotion."

[Otulissa]

I hope so, I don't know what to do if they cant, its like its my last hope. Hopefully I hear from them soon.