[GenCat]

Today has been a very weird emotional day for me...I woke up missing my mother something fierce. Ever since my grandmother died last year I have this irrational fear of losing my mother too. So today I was experiencing alot of anxiety that something bad was going to happen like she was going to be in a car accident or even die.

Has anyone felt like this before? Experienced so much anxiety and fear of something happening to a loved one?

[gayleggg]

Yes, I used to have every time my daughter was out of my sight. I was terrified of her riding her bike, just going to a friends house or playing in the backyard. She's now 38 and sometimes I still panic when I know she is on the road traveling. It is a gripping fear and irrational but it's real in my world.

Hi ,yes I feel the same way about my mum ,im so scared all of the time she is going to become very ill and die ,when I was very little she had breast cancer and was in hospital for months ,I never really was able to get over that ,I think as you lost your grandmother recently it is playing on your mind that you might lose your mum too ,but hopefully as time passed you remember nice memories of your grandmother and begin to worry a little less about your mum
x
sorry if my reply is silly

[Dianerrs]

I have been very fortunate up until this point to really have no experience with death and loss. When I started hitting my teens, and realizing, I guess, that a lot of the people around me were experiencing, or had already been through, the death of a loved one, it started to become this huge anxiety for me. Who's it going to be? How am I going to handle it? I CAN I handle it? That sort of thing.

In particular, I had this serious, horrible feeling that it would be my mother first. I don't know why. She was always really healthy, really active, and just all around a bad-***, tough woman. There are definitely more than a few family members that I should have, logically, been more worried about.

I found out last month that my mom has breast cancer. I know it isn't horribly late stage. It's not in her lymph nodes. She got to leave the hospital yesterday, and is back home- only has to go in every few weeks for treatment at this stage. I know those are all good things. I haven't been able to ask exactly what stage it is, or what the prognosis is, or anything like that. I can't bring myself to. I need to believe that she's going to beat this, but there's a lifelong fear of this happening absolutely destroying me every single day.

I haven't felt like I can breath properly since then.

My point in all this (other than selfishly just needing to get it all out for the first time), is that I know that anxiety you're talking about. It's irrational, but completely rational all at the same time. I work myself in to serious panics if I don't hear from someone for longer than normal. I worry obsessively. You're absolutely not alone. I'm sorry that isn't helpful at all.