 |
| FAQ/Help |
| Calendar |
| Search |
|
#1
Nov 04, 2013, 07:42 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
After spending 2 months in a hotel room with my alcoholic, narcissistic, bipolar. husband & twin 8 yr old demons we finally landed an efficiency apt we could almost afford & nowmy husband lost his job. It wasn't a total surprise. You see i've come to expect the worst. I'm barely able to work & swear i'll go mad if something doesn't give. I've paid repeatedly, how much more must i bleed? We go on, with only a prayer of making it. Welcome to Hell, my friends , hope your stay is b@rief. I'm settling in for an extended stay.
__________________
. . . Burning mud in my eyes blinding me from the truth If it's a shadow in me the dark is a tidal wave inside of you You've been taking communion Getting drunk on your antidote I'll save a seat next to me down below |
 gayleggg, Marla500
|
|
#2
Nov 05, 2013, 06:23 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
A hotel room with 8 year old twins and a husband would drive anyone crazy, not to mention all the problems that your husband has. On top of that you are dealing with your own mental problems. I cannot imagine what you are going through and I hope that things will turn aroung for you very soon.
__________________
"The two most important days in your life are the day you were born.... and the day you find out why" ~ Mark Twain |
| not quite right
|
 not quite right
|
|
#3
Nov 05, 2013, 07:56 AM
|
||||
|
||||
 
__________________
|
| not quite right
|
| not quite right
|
|
#4
Nov 05, 2013, 10:33 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I really hope things turn around for you very soon.
I can't imagine what you must be going through. Bless you.
__________________
Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin "Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha  |
|
#5
Nov 12, 2013, 10:52 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I keep trying to figure out how to achieve some sort of contentment in my life. I'm beggining to think that may be the one thing i have in common with the majority. in our own ways we are all trying to find meaning & justifications for how we suffer. Isn't it the biggest unnknown to humanity? What am i doing here? Do i have a larger purpose? Are things this way because of my actions or is fate in complete control? Does anything reallly matter? Is my illness just a crappy coincidence or is it because that's my destiny to live like this for an. unknown greater understanding ? What if none of it means anything &our existence is irrelevant ? Can true happiness. be defined let alone. achieved ? I don't believe these questions are supposed to be answered. I guess we will just exist believing it is with purpose & hope that it is for this purpose we all contribute. Nothing is totally bad, and the good is not all perfect. I'm just going to believe I have a place to fill in the story & it holds value. I'm not all bad, I'm not really very good, but i will live with the hope that i mattered somehow, someway. & I think that's. okay.
Feeling so philisophical lately. must seem erratic.
__________________
. . . Burning mud in my eyes blinding me from the truth If it's a shadow in me the dark is a tidal wave inside of you You've been taking communion Getting drunk on your antidote I'll save a seat next to me down below |
| Reply |
This is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.|
|
My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.
Linear Mode
